"I shall pay my own debts and Archie's in a moment," he continued, not
noticing whether she answered or not. "If you want a new gown, Di, you
may send the bill to me. I don't believe I owe a thousand, and Archie
not so much, poor lad, though John was always pulling a long face over
his debts. How deuced mean John was from first to last! Well, do as you
would be done by. I'll do for him alone what he thought enough for the
two of you. I'll never give him cause to say I'm close-fisted. He shall
have your eight thousand, and he shall have three hundred a year, the
same that he allowed Archie, as well."
"He won't take it."
"Won't take it!" said Colonel Tempest, contemptuously. "That's all you
know about the world, Di. I tell you he'll have to take it. I tell you
he has not a sixpence in the world at this moment, to say nothing of
owing me twenty years' income."
Colonel Tempest rambled on of how Archie should leave the army and live
at Overleigh, of how Di should live there too, and Mrs. Courtenay might
go to the devil. Presently he fell to wondering what state the shooting
was in, and how many pheasants John was breeding at that moment. Every
instant it became more unbearable, till at last Di sent for the nurse,
made an excuse of posting her letters, and slipped out of the room.
She went out to her old friends, the yellow waves, and, too exhausted to
walk, sat down under the lee of one of the high wooden rivets between
which the sea licks the pebbly shore into grooves.
Gradually the tension of her mind relaxed. Di sat and watched the waves
until they washed away the high invalid voice vibrating in some acute
recess of her brain; washed away the hideous thought that they were rich
because John was penniless and dishonoured; washed away everything
except the one fact that his silence was accounted for, and that he
loved her after all.
Di looked out across the rain-trodden sea. If it was raining, she did
not know it. What did anything in this wide world matter so long as John
loved her? Poverty was nothing. Marriage was nothing either. What did
it matter if they could not marry so long as they loved each other?
Once in a lifetime it is vouchsafed alike to the worldly and to the
pure, to the earnest and to the frivolous, to discern that vision--which
has been ever life's greatest reality or life's greatest illusion
according to the character of the beholder--that to love and to be loved
is enough.
A wet glint came across the sea, exquisite and evanescent as the gleam
across Di's heart.
"It is enough!" said Di; and her soul was flooded with a solemn joy a
thousand times deeper than when she had first discovered her love for
John, and his for her, and a brilliant future was before her.
Sorrow with his pick mines the heart. But he is a cunning workman. He
deepens the channels whereby happiness may enter, and hollows out new
chambers for joy to abide in, when he is gone.
CHAPTER XVI.
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