Ernest Linwood; or, The Inner Life of the AuthorHentz, Caroline Lee
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Ernest Linwood; or, The Inner Life of the Author
Hentz, Caroline Lee
Fiction
Mrs. Linwood gave Richard a cordial greeting. I had an unaccountable
fear that she would not be pleased that he escorted me home so
frequently, though this was the first time he had accompanied me to the
lawn. She urged him to remain and pass the evening, or rather asked him,
for he required no urging. I am sure it must have been a happy one to
him. Edith played upon her harp, which had been newly strung. She seemed
the very personification of one of Ossian's blue-eyed maids, with her
white, rising hands, and long, floating locks.
I was passionately fond of music, and had my talent been early
cultivated I would doubtless have excelled. I cared not much about the
piano, but there was inspiration in the very sight of a harp. In
imagination I was Corinna, improvising the impassioned strains of Italy,
or a Sappho, breathing out my soul, like the dying swan, in strains of
thrilling melody. Edith was a St. Cecilia. Had my hand swept the chords,
the hearts of mortals would have vibrated at the touch; she touched the
divine string, and "called angels down."
When I retired that night and saw the reflection of myself full length,
in the large pier-glass, between the rosy folds of the sweeping damask,
I could not help recalling what Richard Clyde had said of my personal
improvement. Was he sincere, when with apparent enthusiasm he had
applied to me the epithet, _beautiful_? No, he could not be; and yet his
eyes had emphasized the language of his lips.
I was not vain. Few young girls ever thought less of their personal
appearance. I lived so much in the world within, that I gave but little
heed to the fashion of my outward form. It seemed so poor an expression
of the glowing heart, the heaven-born soul.
For the first time I looked upon myself with reference to the eyes of
others, and I tried to imagine the youthful figure on which I gazed as
belonging to another, and not myself. Were the outlines softened by the
dark-flowing sable, classic and graceful? Was there beauty in the oval
cheek, now wearing the warm bloom of the brunette, or the dark,
long-lashed eye, which drooped with the burden of unuttered thoughts?
As I asked myself these questions, I smiled at my folly; and as the
image smiled back upon the original, there was such a light, such a
glow, such a living soul passed before me, that for one moment a
triumphant consciousness swelled my bosom, a new revelation beamed on my
understanding,--the consciousness of woman's hitherto unknown
power,--the revelation of woman's destiny.
And connected with this, there came the remembrance of that haunting
face in the library, which I had only seen on canvas, but which was to
me a breathing reality,--that face which, even on the cold, silent wall,
had no repose; but dark, restless, and impassioned, was either a history
of past disappointment, or a prophecy of future suffering.
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