And as he listened old memories came thronging back, memories at once
exquisite and painful. For now the sufferings of his childhood spread
before him like an allegory whose language his mature eyes could read;
they had been encrusted for years with the ice of bitterness. But here,
under Evelyn’s influence, the ice had melted. He detached himself, the
man, from the sturdy boyish figure which had flinched and wavered, but
yet never given way, and saw how the fire of manhood had been kindled by
those hours of stress. Wind and rain, storm and torrent, had formed his
character, and mountain fastnesses had been his playground. The whole
story of his childhood was a preparation for the battle he was fighting
now. His ceaseless combats with men and things, even the mimic raids
and sorties he had made as a child upon invisible foes, had stood him in
good stead later when struggle was as infallibly his portion as it is
the portion of certain men to sleep beside the hearth.
But if life for him was a battle-field, it was no less a battle-field
for the woman at his side. His foes were worthy opponents, men of
strength who brought their artillery to bear upon his little stronghold;
hers were mere thieves of the night, but both came armed with weapons
that drew blood.
Apart in body, separated from each other by every natural barrier, the
wheel of the potter, whose toil is endless, had shaped the rough clay of
these two human beings from very similar moulds. The voice of the great
religion to which Evelyn belonged has its unworthy exponents; it is not
always in a convent that the purest souls are reared. "_Factus obediens
usque ad mortem crucis_," is sometimes chanted solemnly by those who
betray unconsciously the souls of others; who impose little straws of
restrictions upon backs already bent to breaking by God’s unswerving
laws. Should a Catholic sin, the fault is shrieked from the housetops,
so high a standard is demanded of man or woman who subscribes to that
high faith.
Yet the limits of Catholicism and the limits of Calvinism—apart as they
seem—can touch. The bigot of the one may be as the bigot of the other.
The gospel of detachment had been preached to Evelyn until, for a short
time, she let herself drift upon the waters of submission, and since
habitual and unquestioning obedience must crush in time the strongest
spirit, yielded in the matter of marriage to the direction of her
stepmother and father as she would have yielded to that of a spiritual
adviser. Now, too late, she knew that for this retribution would be
exacted hourly, for God strikes—not as men do, at the mere twigs and
blossoms of human frailty, but at the very roots of being.
Unconsciously the thoughts of the man and woman in the box moved on
converging lines and met, as the music below swayed onward and upward in
Tristan and Isolde’s exquisite duet.
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