England, Northern -- Fiction; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Jews -- Fiction
"I want him to know! Let go! Oh, you won't, won't you? There!" He
wrenched his arm free. He fled along the croft and found his sister
following in forlorn pursuit. When he had put a safe distance between
them he turned round. Channah was standing, wringing her hands, and
her hair, escaped from her combs and pins, flew about her head. It
made him feel an unutterable scoundrel. He knew that he was acting
like a fool and a blackguard! "Come home, Philip, oh, do come home!"
her voice shrilled.
But he couldn't. He had a little dignity after all. He was getting on
in life and it was about time he could think out and pursue his own
plan of campaign.
"I can't!" he said. "Give Mother my love! Good-bye! Tell her it's
not my fault!" he insisted anxiously. "Good-bye!"
He followed up the road and left Channah standing blankly. Definitely
he was running away. An almost complete numbness now gripped his
brain. He had a faint idea of getting out into the country but he
found himself penetrating deeper and deeper into the town. Night was
gathering thickly over Doomington. He felt too stupid even to be aware
of his hunger. For hours and hours, it seemed, he walked through the
dark streets. Indifferent people jostled him into the roadway. Every
now and again he found his journeying had brought him before the same
ugly squat little church. He must get out of this. He turned off in a
direction he was certain he had not pursued before. He found himself
in a murky hidden square, with feet heavy as blocks of stone. Blocks
of stone seemed to be tugging his eyelids down to close over his eyes.
He was suddenly aware of a tremendous need of sleep. There was a form
in the flagged path which led through the square. A man and a woman
were sitting very close together on it; but there was room for him. He
threw himself down and his head fell immediately upon his chest. He
plunged at once into a tired sleep. When he awoke, it was very dark
and quiet. He remembered that there had been a man and a woman beside
him, but they had moved away! What was it he was doing here? Of
course, he'd run away! What a thick heavy business it was, running
away! How many hours ago was it since he had started? Nothing had
happened yet. Nothing. He just felt foolish and extremely miserable.
Well, he must keep going till something did happen. As he rose, he
heard the bell in the steeple over him toll hollowly. One o'clock!
Oh, the desolate hour! Somewhere deep in Doomington, alone, hungry,
tired, at one o'clock! He shuffled wearily from the square and up
through one or two towering and narrow streets. He heard a man
prowling about in a doorway. His heart stood still with terror. Steps
came forward and a lantern surrounded him with ghostly light. A
policeman peered suspiciously into his face and lumbered on. Here was
a main road. How wide and lonely and terrible it was! He dared not
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