Miss Vance looked at her. "Frances, give up your planning and working.
Let George work for you and his wife," she said curtly. "It is time for
you to stop and rest."
"And why should I stop and rest, Clara?" said Frances, amazed.
"Surely you know, dear. You are not as young as you once were. Your
eyes are weak, and your hearing is a little dulled, and----"
Frances threw out her hand eagerly. "You think I am growing old! It
is only my eyes and ears that are wearing out. _I_ am not deaf nor
blind," she said earnestly. "_I_ am not old. I find more fun and
flavor in life now than I did at sixteen. If I live to be seventy, or
a hundred, I shall be the same Frances Waldeaux still."
Clara gave an annoyed shrug. "But really, _I_ make the thought of
death my constant companion. And you are older than I."
"'After the busy day
Comes the calm sleep of night,'"
she quoted, with a sententious sigh.
"Calm and sleep do not appear to me to be the highest conditions of
life. No! I will not be set aside, even when I am dead, like a
burned-out candle!" The indignant tears stood in her eyes. "Why, even
in that other world I shall not be a barren stock, thank God! I have
given a family to mankind. To watch a long line of your descendants at
work, to see in them your own thoughts and your own soul reaching out,
live powers through all eternity--I often think of it. That will
be--not calm nor sleep."
Miss Vance touched Mrs. Waldeaux's arm affectionately. "What a queer
idea, Frances. Well, I never argue, you know. Drop in the harness, if
you choose. Let us go in now. It is chilly."
The older woman looked after her, and smiled good-humoredly. After a
moment she raised her hand, examining it attentively. Her hand had
been very beautiful in shape, white and dimpled, and she had been vain
enough to wear fine rings. Now it was yellow and wrinkled. The great
emerald looked like a bit of glass upon it.
"Yes, I see," she said, with a miserable little laugh, and then stood
looking out into the far distance. "But _I_ am not growing old." She
spoke aloud, as if to one who stood apart with her and could
understand. "Even out in that other world I shall not be only a
mother. I shall be me. ME!" touching her breast. "After a million of
years--it will still be me."
There stirred within the lean body and rheumatic limbs depths of unused
power, of thought, of love and passion, and, deeper than all, awful
possibilities of change.
"I have it in me still to be worse than a murderer," she thought, with
whitening face.
She stood a long time, alone. A strange content and light came slowly
into her face. "Come what will, I shall never be left to myself
again," she said at last, speaking to a Friend whom she had found long
ago.
Then she went in search of the boy. "Come, Jack," she said cheerfully,
"there are busy days before us."
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