Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
“I kin make a shift for myself,” he continually announced to old Dr.
Morrow, who had attended his wife in this case. “I kin cook a little,
and, besides, it don’t take much more’n coffee an’ bread in the
mornin’s to satisfy me. I’ll get along now well enough. Yuh just let
me be.” And after many pleadings and proffers of advice, with supplies
of coffee and bacon and baked bread duly offered and accepted, he was
left to himself. For a while he sat idly outside his door brooding in
the spring sun. He tried to revive his interest in farming, and to keep
himself busy and free from thought by looking after the fields, which
of late had been much neglected. It was a gloomy thing to come in of
an evening, however, or in the afternoon and find no shadow of Phœbe
where everything suggested her. By degrees he put a few of her things
away. At night he sat beside his lamp and read in the papers that were
left him occasionally or in a Bible that he had neglected for years,
but he could get little solace from these things. Mostly he held his
hand over his mouth and looked at the floor as he sat and thought of
what had become of her, and how soon he himself would die. He made a
great business of making his coffee in the morning and frying himself a
little bacon at night; but his appetite was gone. The shell in which he
had been housed so long seemed vacant, and its shadows were suggestive
of immedicable griefs. So he lived quite dolefully for five long
months, and then a change began.
It was one night, after he had looked after the front and the back
door, wound the clock, blown out the light, and gone through all the
self-same motions that he had indulged in for years, that he went to
bed not so much to sleep as to think. It was a moonlight night. The
green-lichen-covered orchard just outside and to be seen from his bed
where he now lay was a silvery affair, sweetly spectral. The moon shone
through the east windows, throwing the pattern of the panes on the
wooden floor, and making the old furniture, to which he was accustomed,
stand out dimly in the room. As usual he had been thinking of Phœbe and
the years when they had been young together, and of the children who
had gone, and the poor shift he was making of his present days. The
house was coming to be in a very bad state indeed. The bed-clothes were
in disorder and not clean, for he made a wretched shift of washing. It
was a terror to him. The roof leaked, causing things, some of them, to
remain damp for weeks at a time, but he was getting into that brooding
state where he would accept anything rather than exert himself. He
preferred to pace slowly to and fro or to sit and think.
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