Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
Another night, because of this first illusion, and because his mind
was now constantly on her and he was old, he looked out of the window
that was nearest his bed and commanded a hen-coop and pig-pen and
a part of the wagon-shed, and there, a faint mist exuding from the
damp of the ground, he thought he saw her again. It was one of those
little wisps of mist, one of those faint exhalations of the earth that
rise in a cool night after a warm day, and flicker like small white
cypresses of fog before they disappear. In life it had been a custom
of hers to cross this lot from her kitchen door to the pig-pen to
throw in any scrap that was left from her cooking, and here she was
again. He sat up and watched it strangely, doubtfully, because of his
previous experience, but inclined, because of the nervous titillation
that passed over his body, to believe that spirits really were, and
that Phœbe, who would be concerned because of his lonely state, must
be thinking about him, and hence returning. What other way would she
have? How otherwise could she express herself? It would be within the
province of her charity so to do, and like her loving interest in
him. He quivered and watched it eagerly; but, a faint breath of air
stirring, it wound away toward the fence and disappeared.
A third night, as he was actually dreaming, some ten days later, she
came to his bedside and put her hand on his head.
“Poor Henry!” she said. “It’s too bad.”
He roused out of his sleep, actually to see her, he thought, moving
from his bed-room into the one living-room, her figure a shadowy mass
of black. The weak straining of his eyes caused little points of
light to flicker about the outlines of her form. He arose, greatly
astonished, walked the floor in the cool room, convinced that Phœbe
was coming back to him. If he only thought sufficiently, if he made it
perfectly clear by his feeling that he needed her greatly, she would
come back, this kindly wife, and tell him what to do. She would perhaps
be with him much of the time, in the night, anyhow; and that would make
him less lonely, this state more endurable.
In age and with the feeble it is not such a far cry from the subtleties
of illusion to actual hallucination, and in due time this transition
was made for Henry. Night after night he waited, expecting her return.
Once in his weird mood he thought he saw a pale light moving about the
room, and another time he thought he saw her walking in the orchard
after dark. It was one morning when the details of his lonely state
were virtually unendurable that he woke with the thought that she was
not dead. How he had arrived at this conclusion it is hard to say.
His mind had gone. In its place was a fixed illusion. He and Phœbe
had had a senseless quarrel. He had reproached her for not leaving
his pipe where he was accustomed to find it, and she had left. It was
an aberrated fulfillment of her old jesting threat that if he did not
behave himself she would leave him.
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