Godolphin, Volume 5.Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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Godolphin, Volume 5.
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Hastily Constance turned aside her face, and brushed away her tears, as
Radclyffe approached; and then seeming to busy herself amongst some papers
that lay scattered on her escritoire, and gave her an excuse for
concealing in part her countenance, she said, with a constrained
cheerfulness, "I am happy you are come to relieve my ennui; I have been
looking over letters, written so many years ago, that I have been forced
to remember how soon I shall cease to be young; no pleasant reflection for
any one, much less a woman."
"I am at a loss for a compliment in return, as you may suppose," answered
Radclyffe; "but Lady Erpingham deserves a penance for even hinting at the
possibility of being ever less charming than she is; so I shall hold my
tongue."
"Alas!" said Constance, gravely, "how little, save the mere triumphs of
youth and beauty, is left to our sex! How much, nay, how entirely, in all
other and loftier objects, is our ambition walled in and fettered! The
human mind must have its aim, its aspiring; how can your sex blame us,
then, for being frivolous when no aim, no aspiring, save those of
frivolity, are granted us by society?"
"And is love frivolous?" said Radclyffe; "is the empire of the heart
nothing?"
"Yes!" exclaimed Constance, with energy; "for the empire never lasts. We
are slaves to the empire we would found; we wish to be loved, but we only
succeed in loving too well ourselves. We lay up our all--our thoughts,
hopes, emotions-all the treasures of our hearts--in one spot; and when we
would retire from the deceits and cares of life, we find the sanctuary
walled against us--we love, and are loved no longer!"
Constance had turned round with the earnestness of the feeling she
expressed; and her eyes, still wet with tears, her flushed cheek, her
quivering lip, struck to Radclyffe's heart more than her words. He rose
involuntarily; his own agitation was marked; he moved several steps
towards Constance, and then checked the impulse, and muttered indistinctly
to himself.
"No," said Constance, mournfully, and scarcely heeding him--"it is in vain
for us to be ambitious. We only deceive ourselves; we are not stern and
harsh enough for the passion. Touch our affections, and we are recalled
at once to the sense of our weakness; and I--I--would to God that I were a
humble peasant girl, and not--not what I am!"
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