Godolphin, Volume 5.Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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Godolphin, Volume 5.
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
So saying, the lofty Constance sank down, overpowered with the bitterness
of her feelings, and covered her face with her hands. Was Radclyffe a man
that he could see this unmoved?--that he could hear those beautiful lips
breathe complaints for the want of love, and not acknowledge the love
that burned at his own heart? Long, secretly, resolutely, had he
struggled against the passion for Constance, which his frequent
intercourse with her had fed, and which his consciousness, that in her was
the only parallel to himself that he had ever met with in her sex, had
first led him to form; and now lone, neglected, sad, this haughty woman
wept over her unloved lot in his presence, and still he was not at her
feet! He spoke not, moved not, but his breath heaved thick, and his face
was as pale as death. He conquered himself. All within Radclyffe obeyed
the idol he had worshipped, even before Constance; all within him, if
ardent and fiery, was also high and generous. The acuteness of his reason
permitted him no self-sophistried; and he would have laid his head on the
block rather than breathe a word of that love which he knew, from the
moment it was confessed, would become unworthy of Constance and himself.
There was a pause. Lady Erpingham, ashamed, confounded at her own
weakness, recovered herself slowly and in silence. Radclyffe at length
spoke; and his voice, at first trembling and indistinct, grew, as he
proceeded, clear and earnest.
"Never," said he, "shall I forget the confidence your emotions have
testified in my--my friendship; I am about to deserve it. Do not, my dear
friend (let me so call you), do not forget that life is too short for
misunderstandings in which happiness is concerned. You believe that--that
Godolphin does not repay the affection you have borne him: do not be
angry, dear Lady Erpingham; I feel it indelicate in me to approach that
subject, but my regard for you emboldens me. I know Godolphin's heart; he
may seem light, neglectful, but he loves you as deeply as ever; he loves
you entirely."
Constance, humbled as she was, listened in breathless silence; her cheek
burned with blushes, and those blushes were at once to Radclyffe a torture
and a reward.
"At this moment," continued he, with constrained calmness, "at this
moment he fancies in you that very coldness you lament in him. Pardon me,
Lady Erpingham; but Godolphin's nature is wayward, mysterious, and
exacting. Have you consulted, have you studied it sufficiently? Note it
well, soothe it; and if his love can repay you, you will be repaid. God
bless you, dearest Lady Erpingham."
In a moment more Radclyffe had left the apartment.
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