These first encounters were endowed with perhaps not much more than the
excitement of what were in a way superficial observations, since
neither of them was yet attempting to sound any deeps in the other's
character. Guy was engaged with driving a wedge into that past of the
Rectory whose least events he now envied, and he was never tired of the
talks about Pauline's childhood, so much of a fairy-tale she still
seemed and fit for endless repetition. And if Guy was never tired of
being told, her family was never tired of telling. Never, he thought,
was lover so fortunate in an audience as he in the willingness with
which he was accorded a confirmation of all his praises. Sometimes,
indeed, he had to look reproachfully at Monica or Margaret when Pauline
seemed hurt at being checked for some piece of demonstrativeness. If he
did so, the sisters would always take an opportunity to draw him aside
and explain that it was only Pauline's perfection which made them so
anxious for its security. Indeed they guarded her perpetually and with
such a high sense of the privilege of wardship that Guy always had to
forgive them at once. Moreover, he was so conscious of their magnanimity
in considering him as a lover that he was almost afraid to claim his
right.
"Margaret," he said one day. "I don't know how you can bear to
contemplate Pauline married. Why, when I think of myself, I'm simply
dumb before the--what word is there--audacity is much too pale and, oh,
what word is there?"
"I don't think I could contemplate her married to anybody but you," said
Margaret.
"But why me?"
"Why, because you are young enough to make love beautiful and right,"
Margaret told him. "And yet you seem old enough to realize Pauline's
exquisite nature. So that one isn't afraid of her being squandered for a
young man's experience."
"But I'm not rich," said Guy, deliberately leading Margaret on to
discuss for the hundredth time this topic of himself and Pauline.
"Pauline wouldn't be happy with riches. They would oppress her. She
isn't luxurious like me."
So round and round, backward and forward, on and on the debate would go,
until Margaret had arranged for Guy and Pauline a life so idyllic that
Shelley would scarcely have found a flaw in her conception.
Pauline, however demonstrative in the presence of her family, was still
shy when she was alone with her lover. Her mirth was turned to a
whisper, and her greatest eloquence was a speech of drooping silences
and of blushes rising and falling. Guy never tired of watching these
flowery motions that were the response of her cheeks to his love. Each
word he murmured was a wind to stir her countenance or ruffle her eyes,
so that they too responded with cloudy deeps and shadows and sudden
veilings.
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