He that will not when he may; vol. IIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. II
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Paul sped along, relieved of the immediate pressure on his heart, and
more determined than ever in his resolution. He had said little in the
morning in answer to Spears’s question. He had declared that it was not
love alone which had brought him there; that there had been nothing
feigned in his enthusiasm for that teaching in which the salvation of
the world he believed would be found to lie; but further he had said
nothing. And Spears had been too much relieved on his own account and
was too delicate on his child’s, to pursue the subject. To tell the
truth, the demagogue, though the kindest of fathers, had not been
delighted by the thought that his own favourite disciple, his captive
aristocrat, the young hero whom he had won out of the enemy’s ranks, and
who was his pride, had been all the time only his daughter’s lover. The
thought had hurt and humbled him. That Paul might love Janet in the
second place, might have learned to love her after his introduction to
the shop, was a different matter. The gratification of recovering his
own place and influence drove the other question from his mind; and by
the time it recurred to him, the delicacy of a mind full of natural
refinement had resumed its sway. It was for the lover to open this
subject, not the girl or her friends. And though he wondered a little
that Paul said nothing more to him, he asked no further question. It was
a relief to Paul, on the other hand, not to be called to account. The
evil day was deferred at least, if no more, and he was very glad to put
it off, to wait for what might happen, to hope perhaps that after all
nothing would happen. Paul did not know what had passed or what his
mother had said. Her own broken and tremulous confession of wrong, and
Janet’s consciousness, had been his only guides. He had thought himself
for the moment bound to Janet; but perhaps things had not gone so far as
he thought; and though he was determined to hold firmly to any bond of
honour that might hold him, even though it were not of his own making,
yet the sense that his freedom was still intact was an unspeakable
relief to him. Since then he had managed to forget Janet; but when he
turned his face towards her home it was not so easy to continue to
forget. The twilight was brightened by the twinkle of the lamps all the
way down the vista of the street, and by a dimmer light here and there
from a window. The shutters had been put up in Spears’s shop, but the
door was open, and in the doorway, faintly indicated by the light
behind, stood some one looking out. Paul knew, before he could see, who
it was. She was looking out for him. It is hard to find our arrival
uncared for by those whom we want to see, but it is, if not more hard,
at least far more embarrassing, to find ourselves eagerly looked for by
those whom we have no wish to see. Paul’s heart sank when he saw the
girl, with the long lines of her black gown filling the doorway, leaning
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