He that will not when he may; vol. IIIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. III
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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“But he must not, Madam,” cried the Rector, raising his voice. “What,
emigrate! and leave you here in your widowhood with no one to stand by
you! This is nonsense--nonsense, Lady Markham. I assure you, my dear
Madam, it is impossible, it must not be.”
Lady Markham smiled faintly through her tears. She shook her head. It
seemed to her that the old Rector, with all his long life behind him,
was so much less experienced, so much more youthful than she was. _Must_
not be! What did it matter who said that so long as the boy himself did
not say it? The Rector had so raised his voice that the two girls had an
excuse for coming nearer, for asking, with their eyes at least, what it
was.
“The Rector says Paul must not go; that he ought to go into the Church
and succeed to the living. Ah!” cried Lady Markham, “it is so easy to
say ‘ought’ and ‘must not.’ And what can I say? that he will do what he
thinks right, not what we think right. What does any one else matter? He
will do--what he likes himself.”
Her voice was choked--her heart was very sore. Never had she breathed a
word of censure upon Paul to other ears than perhaps those of Alice
before. Her usual strength had forsaken her. And Alice, who was
estranged and chilled, did not go near her mother. Dolly Stainforth had
never been brought up to neglect her duties in this particular. Her
business in life had always been with people who were in trouble; a kind
of professional habit, so to speak, delivered her from shyness even when
her own feelings were concerned. She went up quickly to the poor lady
who was weeping, without restraint, and took her hand in those soft
little firm hands which had held up so many. Not so much a shy girl full
of great tenderness as a little celestial curate, devoted everywhere to
the service of the sorrowful, she did not blush or hesitate, but with
two big tears in her eyes spoke her consolation.
“Oh dear Lady Markham,” Dolly said, “are you not proud, are you not
happy to know that it is only what he thinks right that he will do?
What could any one say more? Papa does not know him as--as _you_ do. He
thinks he might be persuaded, though his heart would not be in it; but
you--you would not have him do that? I--” said Dolly all unawares,
betraying herself with a little sob in her throat and her voice sinking
so low as almost to be inaudible--“I” (as if she had anything to do with
it! strong emotion gave her such importance) “would rather he should
go--than stay like that!”
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