England -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction; Indiana -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Mate selection -- Fiction
The day had been sunless. The evening was still and gray, the air soft
and balmy, without a tinge of frost. Through the trees that fringed the
trail, they caught glimpses of the glassy lake mirroring the gray
floating clouds, and great masses of autumn color, with sometimes the
intervening dark shadow of a group of pines.
"Men to you are like a large correspondence, which is read carelessly,
’answered’ scribbled on the envelopes, then piled into pigeon
holes—forgotten."
"I always throw old letters away," said Indiana, sweetly. "I never
accumulate rubbish."
"Oh!" said Lord Canning. He walked beside her for a little while,
thinking deeply. "How silent it is here," he remarked, finally. "This
soft carpet of pine needles muffles every footstep. It seems sacrilege
almost, to speak. This trail seems to me like a dim, narrow aisle of a
church, leading to the altar." He looked upward at the glimpse of gray
sky. "Indiana, I am a very serious man. I accept life as worth living
only with serious aims." They emerged upon a small open space in the
woods, dimly lit, with a Turkish carpet of many-colored leaves. He drew
Indiana down upon a fallen tree, covered with silvery patches of
gray-green moss. "My ideal of a wife has been an intellectual woman of
my own world and standing. But your little hands have bowled over, like
a set of ninepins, all my long cherished traditions and ideas. You have
taken possession of me, in a way which terrifies me. I am miserable
away from you. I am miserable with you. I am restless, sleepless—you
flit before me like a tantalizing will-o’-the-wisp, whose light draws,
maddens me. My pen is idle, my mail lies upon the table—unanswered.
Tell me, have I a chance with you—or let me go. Let me put the ocean
between us, for self-preservation."
"I don’t wish you to think I trifle with marriage because I have refused
several offers," said Indiana, seriously. "It’s not waywardness or
frivolity."
"Indiana!"
"You admit, in your feeling for me, reason has no place. And that your
ideal of a wife is something entirely different from myself."
"Yes," said Lord Canning. "Reason has no place. It is love—love alone."
"I want you to know me as I really am, then—if you are willing to take
the chances—"
"Willing!" He raised her hand to his lips.
"I am very much spoiled," Indiana continued.
"You have all the imperfections which make you charming to a lover, you
will have all the virtues which will make you—divine to your husband."
"I must have my own way—even when I’m wrong. I’m fond of change,
nothing pleases me long. I’m quick tempered, spiteful—but I’m always
sorry for it, after—always."
"Sweetheart, I have watched you closely. I have seen glimpses of
splendid feeling and heart in you, that have become choked by
indulgence. Other conditions will develop the good that is in you—I am
quite confident of it."
She looked through the trees at the gray lake. "I could be different—it
is in me—but—somehow—"
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