She bade the doctors tell her when his recovery was likely to come.
And then, when one evening his hands moved, and he closed his eyes and
slept, she sat there trembling, not daring to be beside him, but her
face turned away. That yearning cry--Dolores, Dolores, had been stilled
for hours; but the night passed and still he was asleep. Then, when it
was broad sunlight, she heard a sudden movement by the nurse, and the
priest began to pray in Latin, and her heart stood still. He sat up;
she retreated in the shadow, toward the door. His voice spoke; but
oh! how low, how weak--not as it had been in his dreaming; alas! this
was now his right mind. He saw not her; his eyes looked sanely out the
window, through the crowded city. “It was a sin to marry her,” he said.
She was carried fainting to her room within the tower, and there again
she waited. “Has he asked for me?” she ventured to ask, at night.
He had asked for my lady, and they told him she was ill. And the next
day again; and they had told him she was in her suite about the tower.
She dared not seek him now. And flowers came to her from him, but no
further speech. Thrice he sent his homage to her. He could not walk
yet, but he sent his homage to her. She asked to know when he could
walk; and they told her they would let her know. So, one afternoon,
they told her he might walk the next day; and all that night she passed
in prayer.
The next day she waited for his step upon the stone floor. It came
not; to her tears and prayers, it came not. Jacinta’s dead hand
still held close the note. She prayed--was it wrong to pray when
so unshrived?--to Maria Vergen de las Mercedes, but still it came
not. Her haughty Spanish breeding forbade her showing sorrow to her
servants, and they were cold and deferential to her. Jacinta? She was
dead--Dolores knew, but thought that she had given him her letter. She
had sinned, yes, but he was her husband.
The next day she asked the servant. The Señor General was gone. Gone?
without seeing her even? He had had to go to the wars; he had not
ventured to disturb my lady; he left a letter. A letter? she tore it
open, read it. It sent his respectful worship to “the Marquesa;” it
apologized for his illness; it prayed forgiveness from her for having
married her; it was done to save her name. It said no word of love; and
Sebastian Ruy del Torre was a gentleman: his love appeared not in his
letter. If she loved him not, he would not wound her by showing his. It
said no word of guilt. He would neither wound her by requiring love nor
by suggesting blame; but to Dolores’s morbid fancy it had a sense of
blame. It closed by speaking of his duty at the wars; of his country’s
freedom; perhaps, a hint of hers. Dolores clasped the white paper to
her breast, and, to immortal eyes its color was of blood. She read it
once again; and del Torre, had he been there, could have seen her heart
die in her eyes.
XIII.
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