Adultery -- Fiction; Artists -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction; Painters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Jenny bent over her mother and kissed the tears from her pretty, childish
eyes. The longing to give and to receive tenderness, the remembrance of
her early childhood, and the consciousness that her mother did not know
her life—its sorrows before and its happiness now—melted into a feeling
of protecting love, and she gathered her mother into her arms.
“Don’t cry, mother dear. Everything will come all right. I am going to
stay at home for the present, and we have still something left of Aunt
Katherine’s money.”
“No, Jenny, you must keep that for yourself. I understand now that you
must not be hampered in any way in your work. It was such a joy to us all
when your picture at the exhibition was sold last autumn.”
Jenny smiled. The fact that she had sold a picture and had two or three
lines in the papers about it made her people look upon her work in quite
a different light.
“Don’t worry about me, mother. It is all right. I may be able to earn
something while I am here. I must have a studio, though,” she said,
after a pause, adding as an explanation: “I must finish my pictures in a
studio, you see.”
“But you will live at home, won’t you?” asked the mother anxiously.
Jenny did not answer.
“It won’t do, my dear child, for a young girl to live alone in a studio.”
“Very well,” said Jenny; “I shall live at home.”
When she was alone she took out Helge’s photo and sat down to write to
him. She had been home only a couple of hours, and yet everything she had
lived through out there, where he was, seemed so far away and altogether
apart from her life here, before or now. The letter was one single cry of
yearning.
II
Jenny had hired a studio and was arranging it to her taste. Kalfatrus
came in the afternoons and helped her.
“You have grown so tall that I almost thought I could not call you by the
old name any longer.”
The boy laughed.
Jenny asked about all his doings while she had been away, and Nils told
her of the extraordinary adventures he and two boy friends had had while
they lived for some weeks in the log huts in Nordmarken. As she listened,
it crossed her mind that her trips up there with him were now things of
the past.
She went in the mornings to the outskirts of the city—to walk by herself
in the sunshine. The fields lay yellow with dead grass, there was still
snow under the pines, but tiny buds were coming out on the foliage trees
and from underneath the dead leaves peeped downy shoots of the blue
anemone. She read Helge’s letters again and again; she carried them about
her wherever she went. She longed for him impatiently, madly—longed to
see him and touch him and convince herself that he was hers.
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