But Susan was not the woman to exhibit her passion in words. In
another fashion she did exhibit it: in the best fashion that devotion
Can show itself--in deeds. She was not a cunning woman, nor a wise one
either. Being from the very infirmities of her nature a kind of social
outcast, she was not likely to consider what the world would say of
any action of hers. And here was an anomaly; she was neither foolish
enough nor wise enough to consider what the world would say; yet had
she considered that her conduct was open to censure, she would not
have swerved a hair's breadth because of the world's opinion; and this
very independence proceeded not from a hardened nature, but from a
nature utterly simple. So she did what a very considerable majority of
the busy bees in this busy world would consider either a very foolish
thing or some thing worse. When she left her home she rented a room in
the miserable house in which Basil Kindred and his daughter resided.
She did this because she loved him; and yet looking for no return of
her passion, she did it so that she might make herself useful to him
and to Minnie. The living she earned as a dressmaker was a poor and a
scanty one enough; but she managed, out of her small earnings, to
contribute some little towards the comfort of the couple whose
acquaintance she had so strangely made.
Joshua was always certain of a warm welcome from Basil and Minnie; an
affectionate intimacy had sprung up between them, and he had spent
many a pleasant hour in their company. But in the first flush of their
intimacy he had been sorely puzzled by Basil Kindred's strange ways
and oft-times stranger remarks; the wandering restlessness of his
eyes, and the no less wandering nature of his speech, engendered grave
doubts whether he was quite right in his mind. And as Joshua looked
from Basil's fine mobile face to that of his daughter, so like her
father's in all its grand and beautiful outlines, it distressed him to
think that her intellect also might be tainted with her father's
disease. It might not be; it might be merely the want of proper moral
training that induced her to be so strangely incoherent, so reckless
and defiant, and yet at the same time so singularly tender in her
conduct. With Minnie every thing was right or wrong according to the
way in which it affected herself. She recognized no general law as
guiding such and such a principle or sentiment. There was this
similarity and this difference between Minnie and Susan: they both
ignored the world's opinion and the world's judgment of their actions.
But where Susan would be meek, Minnie would be defiant; where Susan
would offend through ignorance, Minnie would offend consciously, and
be at the same time ready to justify herself and argue the point;
which latter she would do, of course, only from her point of view.
Supposing that it could be reduced to weights and measures, Minnie
would have been content to place herself and her affections on one
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