"I already know," said Wroblewski, "though I do not quite comprehend
it. I do not wish to blame you, but you do not seem to have acted quite
prudently. When you suggested, the evening before the elopement, that
Judith might take it tragically, and therefore your conscience would
not allow it, what did I say? 'Your conscience? That is your affair.
Consider it well.' Now, thought I, 'the count knows Judith better than
I, and his position to her; either he will not consider his scruples
justified and will come, or they will, after consideration, seem well
founded; and then, out of pure friendship, I will catch cold at the
open window.' You came, consequently your conscience was clear, and
that sufficed for me."
"Dare yon speak so to me?" cried the count.
The magistrate evidently thought it more politic to misconstrue this
insulting ejaculation. He said, innocently, "Of course! Who else than
I, your only faithful friend? But it is not intended as a complaint; as
I have once before said, you made a mistake. You ought to have
disillusionized the girl carefully and delicately. Everything has its
way, and much depends on that. You ought never to have permitted such a
brutal affair as that fight in the water to have occurred. You have
found maids to-day. Why didn't you yesterday?"
"We will not speak of that," said the count. "Nor will we argue as to
whether you aroused my conscience or not, or whether you always did as
I wished. Your conduct does not lessen my guilt; at least, not in my
sight. I have acted basely and cruelly and carelessly. The first few
weeks we passed in a delirium. I thought of nothing in the world but
her, and she only of me. Then came the wakening. She asked and urged,
never dreaming I would refuse to marry her. She only wondered why the
priest was so long in coming to baptize her and to marry us. You can
believe I expiated a large portion of my sin in the three days I tried
to kiss away her fears while I dissembled and lied. It was in vain.
Yesterday she remained in her room a long time; and when she at last
appeared, I read in her face that she no longer believed me. Then,
while she listened quietly, I confessed all, and swore I would never
forsake her, and I really thought she would get over it in a few days.
So, at her request, I left her quite alone. That evening, when I saw
her again, I was startled--such tearless, inexpressible sorrow was in
every line of her face. She begged and implored: 'Make me your wife,
for only three days, and then I will commit suicide, and you shall be
free again.' It was frightful."
He was silent.
"Cheer up!" said Wroblewski, encouragingly. "Of course, you tried to
pacify her."
The count shook his head. "I said to her: 'I can die with you, but I
cannot make you my wife. If you like, this shall be our last hour. But
if you decline this, and commit suicide, I will follow you.' I meant it
seriously."
"I do not doubt it. And then you let her alone."
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