“Wind and fire,” he replied. And in order to carry his plan into
execution he proposed to avail himself of his free access to the
students’ Dissecting Room.
During the longish interval between the conception and carrying out
of this preposterous experiment I shifted like a weathercock between
acceptance and refusal. My doubts were torturing. There were times
when I treated it as the proposal of a lunatic that at worst could
work no injury to anyone concerned. But there were also times when a
certain familiar reality clothed it with a portentous actuality. I was
reminded faintly of something similar I had been connected with before.
Dim figures of this lost familiarity stalked occasionally across the
field of inner sight. Julius and I had done this thing together long,
long ago, “when the sun was younger,” and when we were “nearer to the
primitive beauty,” as he phrased it. In reverie, in dreams, in moments
when thinking was in abeyance, this odd conviction asserted itself.
It had to do with a Memory of some worship that once was mighty and
effective; when august Presences walked the earth in stupendous images
of power; and traffic with them had been useful, possible. The barrier
between the human and the non-human, between Man and Nature, was not
built. Wind and fire! It was always wind and fire that he spoke of. And
I remember one vivid and terrific dream in particular in which I heard
again a voice pronounce that curious name of “Concerighé,” and, though
the details were blurred on waking, I clearly grasped that certain
elemental powers had been evoked by us for purposes of our own and had
not been suffered to return to their appointed places; further, that
concerned with us in the awful and solemn traffic was--another. We had
been three.
This dream, of course, I easily explained as due directly to my
talks with Julius, but my dread was not so easily dismissed, and
that I overcame it finally and consented to attend was due partly to
the extraordinary curiosity I felt, and partly to this inexplicable
attraction in my deeper self which urged me to see the matter through.
Something inevitable about it forced me. Yet, but for the settled
conviction that behind the abhorrent proposal lay some earnest purpose
of LeVallon’s, not ignoble in itself, I should certainly have refused.
For, though saying little, and not taking me fully into his confidence,
he did manage to convey the assurance that this thing was not to
be carried out as an end, but as a means to an end, in itself both
legitimate and necessary. It was, I gathered, a kind of preliminary
trial--an attempt that _might_ possibly succeed, even without the
presence of the third.
“Sooner or later,” he said, aware that I hesitated, “it must be faced.
Here is an opportunity for us, at least. If we succeed, there is no
need to wait for--another. It is a question. We can but try.”
And try accordingly we did.
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