It was not easy to get a quiet half hour in the Barracks, especially
at the present exciting period--the approaching Doncaster meeting;
so in order to enjoy an uninterrupted conference, Burton and I
mounted our horses, and took the least frightful of the roads round
Carrington. I endeavoured to convey to my companion some idea of the
impression stamped on my mind by the few days I had spent at A----;
its peace and simplicity, it's freedom from monotony and ennui! but
it would not do; Burton was, as I think I have said, a kind-hearted,
high minded fellow, but singularly free from imagination. I fancy he
had met a few harder rubs in his contact with the world than I had;
not that he ever talked of his own circumstances, but it was evident
he was not rich.
"All this is very fine," said he, at the end of my elaborate
description, "and you might like the novelty of the thing for a week
or so; but take my word for it, at the end of a fortnight, you would be
drawing comparisons between your philosophic society of painters and
musicians, and that of your discarded Regiment, anything but favourable
to the former."
"No, I do not believe it! I have for a long time felt a weariness and
distaste for the life I am leading, without a notion or a hope of
anything better; I do not know why, except that at thirty one begins to
tire of the eternal sameness of the mess table, country quarters, slow
promotion, and no very particular occupation. Up to five and twenty,
military life may have its charms, but then it begins to lose its _soi
disant_ attractions. I suppose it was the dearth of variety, and the
vain hope of getting up something like excitement, that induced me to
make a fool of myself by plunging into various extravagances of late;
they will cost me dear enough; I wish they had put me to a desk instead
of buying me a commission. It's too bad to think that at my age I am no
further on in the world than I was at eighteen, and unfit for anything
except leading a charge or riding a steeple chase; and the brute that
gave us a great dinner the other day, and bored Sedley about his 'Ock,'
what was his name? 'Mogg?' ay Mogg! How old do you think the savage?"
"Fifty-five, perhaps."
"Not more than twenty-five years my senior, and began life, as an
errand boy! I should like to know what and where I shall be at
fifty-five; a wretched old half-pay; speculating how long I can make
a ten-and-sixpenny hat last; with a bed-room in Leicester Square, and
my address at the Senior United Service Club; and mine was a boyhood of
_bon bons_, bowing tutors, and Shetland ponies."
"Why, Egerton, you are quite eloquent! I think your excursion to A----
has only served to open your eyes to the miseries you were before
unconscious of; I'd prefer happy ignorance; I conclude the English
of all this is, that Miss Vernon's angelic voice and beautiful eyes
incline you to matrimony, while common sense warns you off, eh?"
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