Wrapt in mingling emotions of amazement and alarm, Kate had not heard
a light step in the adjoining room; and Lord Effingham, too much
engrossed by the passion of the moment, was equally regardless. Both
had been standing near the window by which he had entered, while
an unseen witness gazed with the fascination of dismay and bitter
mortification, through the opposite door, which was partly open.
Something had occurred to postpone the debate which Lady Desmond had
wished to hear; and scarcely regretting the disappointment in her
anxiety to return to Kate, had left town early, and on her arrival at
home, having asked if Miss Vernon was at home, and being answered
in the affirmative, walked at once to the morning-room they usually
occupied; as she crossed the drawing-room communicating with it, she
heard, to her astonishment, Lord Effingham's well-known voice, at the
moment he raised it exclaiming--"Why talk of Lady Desmond? I never
loved her, &c."--and reached the door in time to see him at Kate's
feet, as she had longed to see him at her own. Every syllable of
that torturing sentence seemed burning into her heart, as retaining
sufficient self-command to retire, unseen, she rushed to her own
chamber to hide from every eye, but that of the All-seeing, the awful
agonies of a desolated spirit.
With agonised distinctness, she reviewed the last three months, and in
the new and sudden light thus forced upon her, was compelled to own,
that, had not previous impressions blinded her judgment, she might have
seen she was not Lord Effingham's sole attraction in his frequent
visits. Then again came the recollection of a thousand allusions to
former scenes and passages in their intercourse, capable of a double
signification, on which she had put but one; a thousand looks and
tones, slight in themselves, but now irrefragable proofs that she had
been duped; and Kate, could she have been a party in the deception,
she to whom all the weakness, so carefully hidden from others, had
been fully displayed, she on whom Lady Desmond had ever looked as the
very personation of truth. Impossible! yet why was Lord Effingham
admitted secretly? Why did Kate seem so ready and willing to be left
alone? Why did she so pertinaciously endeavour to turn her from her
unfortunate attachment; and Lady Desmond groaned aloud as these, to
her tempest-tossed mind, incontrovertible proofs of treachery rose
up before it. "But his influence is irresistible, and how was she to
be wiser than I was. Why am I called beautiful?" And she flew to
the glass: it flung back the image of a countenance so darkened and
disturbed by the storm within, that she shrank from it. "Ah, she has
the lovely freshness of youth, and I, why have I outlived it?" Then
she remembered the evident joy of Lord Effingham, the first day he met
her at Richmond; she recalled the rapture with, which she had hailed
that joy, "and but for her all might have been well; if she had been
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