"What is it that would not have happened?" said he with surprise, turning towards me. "There has been nothing. All is well, very well," he repeated smiling. "Can it be possible," I thought, that he does not understand me? "or, worse still, that he will not understand me?" and my tears began to fall. "This would have happened,--that, not having made me guilty towards you, you would not have punished me by your indifference, your contempt," I broke out. "What would _not_ have happened is seeing myself, with no fault on my own part, suddenly robbed by you of all that was dear to me." "What are you saying, my darling?" he exclaimed, as if he had not understood my words. "No, let me finish! You have robbed me of your confidence, your love, even of your esteem, and this because I ceased to believe that you still loved me after what had taken place! No," I went on, checking him again as he was about to interrupt me, "for once I must speak out all that has been torturing me so long! Was I to blame because I did not know life, and because you left me to find it out for myself?... And am I to blame that now,--when at last I comprehend, of myself, what is necessary in life; now, when for more than a year I have been making a struggle to return to you,--you constantly repulse me, constantly pretend not to know what I want? and things are so arranged that there is never anything for you to reproach yourself with, while I am left to be miserable and guilty? Yes, you would cast me back again into that life which must make wretchedness for me and for you!" "And how am I doing that?" he asked, with sincere surprise and alarm. "Did not you tell me yesterday,--yes, you tell me so perpetually,--that the life here does not suit me, and that we must go to St. Petersburg again for the winter? Instead of supporting me," I continued, "you avoid all frankness with me, any talk that is sweet, and real. And then if I fall, you will reproach me with it, or you will make light of it!" "Stop, stop," he said severely and coldly; "what you are saying is not right. It only shows that you are badly disposed towards me, that you do not...." "That I do not love you! say it! say it, then!" I exclaimed, blind with my tears. I sat down on the bench, and covered my face with my handkerchief. "That is the way he understands me!" I thought, trying to control my choking sobs. "It is all over with our old love!" said the voice in my heart. He did not come near me, and made no attempt to console me. He was wounded by what I had said. His voice was calm and dry, as he began: "I do not know what you have to reproach me with, except that I do not love you as I used to do!" "As you used to love me!..." I murmured under my handkerchief, drenching it with bitter tears. "And for that, time and ourselves are equally guilty. For each period there is one suitable phase of love...." He was silent.