Feminist fiction, Australian; Sex role -- Fiction; Short stories, Australian; Women -- Fiction
"Oh, yes, the money's all right; oh, Lord, yes! I settled, I settled,"
with the reiteration of drunken gravity, "I settled that. But the
mother was a brute, a heartless brute; and she was a lady too, ay, in
her own right. And she never asked a word about them, not one word;
it was I, I, poor disreputable brute, that put them to nurse, and I
loathed her for it. Ah, if you women knew what a hold simple goodness
has on us! I met her once, I had one at each hand; I used to go to see
them. Oh, they don't know, they don't know, God forbid! and she lay
back in her victoria and looked at us, curse her! She has children
now, legitimate ones, and my little girls don't know I'm alive. Oh,
my poor little girls! They are so pretty! Mind you bury that locket
with me; don't open it! Yes, yes, I know; don't think I don't trust
you,--only woman I ever trusted in the world. But I'm afraid for them:
curse this water in my eyes [sob]; don't you imagine I'm crying, I'm
not! It's whiskey, pure, unadulterated [hiccough] whiskey; but I can't
help thinking of them. The others, ay, Lord! how many others? I don't
care about them, I settled for them; _they weren't ladies_, they'll get
on well enough; but these my pretty little ones, I'm afraid for them,
afraid for them! I, who spared no man's daughter, how can I tell if
some brute won't hurt mine? Oh, God! oh, God! how can they be good with
such a father and such a mother?"
He drinks as he speaks, and pours out in grief and rage a wild torrent
of prayers and curses.
"Ay, verily, it's reaping the whirlwind! How the faces crowd round!
they always come with the gray morning light,--women's faces, girls'
faces, child-girls' faces--oh, damn you! hide me from them! hold me
tight and keep them away! put your arms right round me! you are clean,
a clean little thing,--they can't come through you."
And she holds the throbbing head in her arms, and hides the wild eyes
in her breast, and she feels as if there is a rustle of trailing skirts
about her, and waving hair and a feel of women; and then he tears
himself out of her clasp, and she falls, bruising herself sorely; and
he throws over the table, with a shatter of falling glass, and bounds
up the stairs, snatching a riding-whip out of the hall; and he beats
its gold head into jagged shreds of glitter on the maids' door, and
shouts to them to rise and come down. He'll show them he is master in
his own house! He has eaten nothing all day,--no, nor for many days!
down at once, or he'll know why, and cook, cook his dinner and light
fires,--yes, fires everywhere! What does he pay them for, lazy sluts!
what does he keep house for?
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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