Feminist fiction, Australian; Sex role -- Fiction; Short stories, Australian; Women -- Fiction
She moves noiselessly away, and goes into the dressing-room, and walks
over to the mirror. She shakes her dusky elf-locks round her face, and
catching up a yellow scarf lying on a chair winds it round her head,
and then peers at herself in the glass. A deft twist turns down the
white frills of her nightgown; she has a gold chain round her neck, and
she laughs a childish, noiseless laugh at her own image. "How strangely
my eyes gleam, and what a gypsy I look! No one would know, no one would
dream of it. I would soon get brown!" and she looks wistfully out
toward the camp again. "In an hour they will go. A heap of fern to lie
on, scant fare, and weary feet; but the freedom, ah, the freedom! The
woods with their wealth of shy, wild things, and the mountains that
make one yearn to soar up over their heights to the worlds above! Free
to follow the beck of one's spirit, a-ah to dream of it!" and the red
light glows in her eyes again. They have an inward look; what visions
do they see? The small thin face is transformed, the lips are softer,
one quick emotion chases the other across it, the eyes glisten and
darken deeply, and the copper threads shine in her swart hair. What is
she going to do, what resolve is she making?
A muttered groan, a stir in the bed rouses her, and throwing aside the
scarf she glides swiftly to his side. She stands and looks down. What
a magnificent head it is, and how repellent! The tossed black locks
with their silver streaks lie scattered on the pillow. The ear suggests
vigorous animalism, the nose is powerful, the broad forehead shines
whitely, and the long lashes curl upward as those of a child. The
sensual-lipped mouth with its cruel lines shows more cruel as the head
is thrown back. She looks at it steadily; no line escapes her,--looks
from it to the hands, nerveless, white; the long, thin thumbs have a
hateful expression, and the backs are short with an ugly joining to the
wrists. He stirs, and a lewd word escapes his lips. She shudders! Again
her eyes wander out with an appealing look (to whom do they appeal,--to
part of herself, to some God of convention?) toward the camp. They are
stirring; she can see the Finn dog run to and fro. She steps away;
irresolution is expressed in her face; her head is thrust forward, her
fingers spread out unconsciously. She glances across the floor; some
shelves are to be nailed up, one of them is leant against the wardrobe
door. As she hesitates, she notices that the shadow of it and the
half-closed door throws a long cross almost to her feet. She folds her
hands involuntarily: a whimper from the bed, a frightened call,--
"Come to me! Where are you? Don't leave me a second! oh, God! don't
leave me! What's that there? Give me a drop of brandy! quick, oh quick!
Kneel down, dearie, close, close to me; lay your little old cheek
against mine, and say a little prayer,--no psalm business, just one out
of your own little head [sob] to suit a poor devil like me!"
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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