“The _jaundice_!” repeats the young man, with more of entertainment than
compassion in his low laugh. “Poor Féo! The yellow danger! What on earth
has given her over as a prey to it at this cruelly unpropitious moment?”
“I do not know.”
“And you are to nurse dear Binning instead of her? What a blessed,
blessed change for him!”
There is not the faintest trace of jealousy in his tone, and the most
unaffected friendliness in his mention of the sick man; but she wishes
that he had not called him “dear.” It makes her illogically feel more of
a traitor than before; and, besides, is it quite manly?
“I am to sit with him this afternoon,” she answers in a tone of caustic
discontent, “and convince that idiot Féodorovna that he is not being
poisoned or starved. It will only be for to-day,” she adds, more as a
satisfaction to her own conscience than as an explanation in the least
called for by him. “And to-morrow you will both be back!”
“Even if we are, you must not hurry home!” replies Rupert, with that
complete unselfishness which his family has grown so used to as barely
to be aware of. “I am so boomed just now, that I can run the show
without you for an indefinite time. He actually asked my opinion this
morning,” opening his eyes wide and smiling; then, growing grave again,
“and I always feel that we none of us can do enough to make that poor
chap feel at his ease with us!”
She looks up at him in a dumb appreciation of his delicacy and feeling,
that has no pleasure, nay, a leaven of unmistakable pain in it; and
looking realizes that he is paler than his never high-coloured wont.
Admirably as he disguises it, is it a sacrifice that he is making? Does
he divine?
“You look as white as a sheet,” she says, with a sudden impulse to know
the worst. “What has happened to you?”
“You will be angry with me if I tell you that I have had a fright!” he
answers, smiling again, deprecatingly this time. “But that is about what
it comes to. My father made them put the young horse into the cart, when
I went to Shipstone this morning. And we met one of those steam-rollers;
and he took fright and bolted.”
“And you could not hold him?”
“I was not driving. You know I never do, if I can help it. I do not see
the use of keeping a dog and barking one’s self!”
“Well?”
“Oh, you need not be afraid that I did anything unworthy of a man and a
gentleman!” noting with slightly ironical comment the apprehension in
her face. “I sat tight, and Hodson pulled him up just in time to stop
him taking the gates at the level crossing. But you know that nerves are
not my strong point; and it gave them a bit of a jar!”
Her face has hardened and stiffened. “A man has no business to have
nerves!”
“What is he to do if God has presented him with a large bundle of them
at his birth?”
The question is unanswerable, and on this unsatisfactory note they part.
It sounds out of tune-ly all through her short drive, and makes a
discord of it. White as a table-cloth because a horse shied!
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