Life of John Coleridge Patteson : Missionary Bishop of the Melanesian IslandsYonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
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Life of John Coleridge Patteson : Missionary Bishop of the Melanesian Islands
Yonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
Missions -- Melanesia; Patteson, John Coleridge, 1827-1871
'My dear Sophy,--We have had a good examination, I think; perhaps rather
harder than I expected. Woolecombe and Chancellor Harrington spoke to
me this morning, thanking me for my papers, and telling me to read the
Gospel at the Ordination.
'I did feel very nervous last Sunday and Monday, and the Ember Prayer
in the morning (when I was at Ottery) fairly upset me, but I don't think
anybody saw it; now, I am thankful to say, I am very well, and
feel thoroughly happy. I shall be nervous, no doubt, on Sunday, and
especially at reading the Gospel, but not I think so nervous as to break
down or do anything foolish; so when you know I am reading--for you
won't hear me, if you are in the stalls, don't distress yourself about
me.
'I can't tell what it was that upset me so on Sunday and
Monday--thinking of dear Mamma and how she had wished for this, the
overwhelming kindness of everybody about me, dear Father's simple words
of very affectionate comfort and advice.
'But I walked into Exeter, and on the way got quite calm, and so I have
been ever since. It is not strange that the realising the near approach
of what I have for years wished for, and looked forward to, should
at times come upon me with such force that I seem scarcely master of
myself; but it is only excitement of feeling, and ought, I know, to
be repressed, not for a moment to be entertained as a test of one's
religious state, being by no means a desirable thing. I am very glad the
examination is over. I did not worry myself about it, but it was rather
hard work, and now I have my time to myself for quiet thought and
meditation.
'Ever, dear Sophy, your affectionate Cousin,
'J. C. PATTESON.'
The next evening he writes:--
'Saturday, 5.45 P.M.
'My dearest Father,--I must write my last letter as a layman to you. I
can't tell you the hundredth part of the thoughts that have been passing
through my mind this week. There has been no return of the excitement
that I experienced last Sunday and Monday, and I have been very happy
and well.
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