The third phase I was not destined to see. It began when Lambert and I
were parted, for he did not leave college till he was eighteen, in the
summer of 1815. He had at that time lost his father and mother about six
months before. Finding no member of his family with whom his soul could
sympathize, expansive still, but, since our parting, thrown back on
himself, he made his home with his uncle, who was also his guardian, and
who, having been turned out of his benefice as a priest who had taken
the oaths, had come to settle at Blois. There Louis lived for some time;
but consumed ere long by the desire to finish his incomplete studies,
he came to Paris to see Madame de Stael, and to drink of science at its
highest fount. The old priest, being very fond of his nephew, left Louis
free to spend his whole little inheritance in his three years' stay in
Paris, though he lived very poorly. This fortune consisted of but a few
thousand francs.
Lambert returned to Blois at the beginning of 1820, driven from Paris by
the sufferings to which the impecunious are exposed there. He must often
have been a victim to the secret storms, the terrible rage of mind
by which artists are tossed to judge from the only fact his uncle
recollected, and the only letter he preserved of all those which Louis
Lambert wrote to him at that time, perhaps because it was the last and
the longest.
To begin with the story. Louis one evening was at the Theatre-Francais,
seated on a bench in the upper gallery, near to one of the pillars
which, in those days, divided off the third row of boxes. On rising
between the acts, he saw a young woman who had just come into the box
next him. The sight of this lady, who was young, pretty, well dressed,
in a low bodice no doubt, and escorted by a man for whom her face
beamed with all the charms of love, produced such a terrible effect on
Lambert's soul and senses, that he was obliged to leave the theatre. If
he had not been controlled by some remaining glimmer of reason, which
was not wholly extinguished by this first fever of burning passion, he
might perhaps have yielded to the most irresistible desire that came
over him to kill the young man on whom the lady's looks beamed. Was not
this a reversion, in the heart of the Paris world, to the savage passion
that regards women as its prey, an effect of animal instinct combining
with the almost luminous flashes of a soul crushed under the weight
of thought? In short, was it not the prick of the penknife so vividly
imagined by the boy, felt by the man as the thunderbolt of his most
vital craving--for love?
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