Loved and lost : $b or, A deadly secretClay, Bertha M.
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Loved and lost : $b or, A deadly secret
Clay, Bertha M.
Dime novels; England -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Popular literature
Lady Gwendolyn was too much overcome at this sudden apparition.
She could not speak for a moment; and, taking her silence for
encouragement, Lawrence Dacre knelt down beside her, and lifted the
hand he still held to his lips.
“I have done with resistance,” he said; his eyes full of gloomy
passion. “Whether you take me, or leave me, Gwendolyn, I belong to
you--and you only now. These last few days I have done nothing but
fight and struggle, until all the flesh has worn off my bones,” he
added, with a grim laugh; “and I’ll make an end of it somehow. Do you
hear me, child?”
“Yes, yes; go on,” she answered, scarcely knowing what she said.
“What more can I tell you? I should scare you, perhaps, if I let you
see all the wild, burning passion in my heart, for your love compared
to mine is
‘As moonlight unto sunlight,
And as water unto wine.’
But I will teach you better when you belong to me. I could not be
satisfied with the lukewarm affections that most women are ready to
bestow on any man who has proper notions with regard to settlements.
I must find some expanse in my wife’s heart to the jealous, exclusive
passion in my own, otherwise there would be no use in living, that I
can see. I never cared much about the world, and am ready to relinquish
all its so-called pleasures if you bid me; but, then, I must have the
return my soul craves--something more precious to me than a crown and
kingdom--your undivided love.”
His mellow voice made such pleasant music at her ear, that Lady
Gwendolyn had made no effort to rouse herself so far; but when he
ceased to speak, she lifted her haggard, tear-stained face, and said,
with somber resignation:
“What is the use of picturing impossibilities? You know I could not
marry you if I would.”
“Why not?”
“You forget that I know your secret.”
“Now, you must explain what you mean by my secret, Gwendolyn,” he said,
with decision, as he lifted her on to the couch, and sat down beside
her. “Twice you have thrown it in my teeth, and though I have tried
hard to find out what you meant, I have been unable to do so. On my
honor as a gentleman, I know nothing that need prevent our marriage.”
His arm was stealing round her waist, but she pushed it away, and faced
him with a regal air.
“Listen to me, Colonel Dacre!” she said impressively. “It is true that
I was only twenty the other day, but I have seen a good deal of the
world, and am not easily deceived. From the first moment that you and I
met, I knew that you had something on your mind.”
“Few men reach my age without finding that they have a good deal to
remember and forget. In my hot youth I committed plenty of follies,
I dare say; but I can safely swear that I never really loved a woman
until I saw you.”
“And never deceived one, Colonel Dacre?”
“Never--as I hope for heaven!”
“Oh, hush!--hush!” she exclaimed, her eyes flashing. “You are deceiving
me now.”
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