Madam Constantia : $b The romance of a prisoner of war in the revolution (South Carolina)Carter, Jefferson
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Madam Constantia : $b The romance of a prisoner of war in the revolution (South Carolina)
Carter, Jefferson
South Carolina -- History -- Revolution, 1775-1783 -- Fiction; United States -- History -- Revolution, 1775-1783 -- Fiction
“And no doubt you are often anxious about him?”
“Anxious?” For once she looked at me. And then in a tone of feeling, too
tragic, as it seemed to me, for the occasion, “God knows how anxious!”
she said. “God knows what is the weight I have to bear!”
I thought her answer over-strained. I thought her anxiety more than the
occasion required; and I felt about for an explanation. “You are so near
the fighting,” I said lamely, for I felt that I was making excuse for
her. “Doubtless it is more trying to you.”
“I am so near,” she answered with the same depth of feeling. “And so
helpless! So helpless! I sit and wait! And wait!”
“That is too often the woman’s part, I fear.”
“God forbid,” she replied with extraordinary bitterness, “that my part
should fall to the lot of many women. He cannot be so cruel!”
I drew away after that. I did not dare to press her farther, for I
thought that she was overwrought and hardly herself. The note of tragedy
seemed to be out of place in face of this calm country-side, of the
still woods, of the lowing cattle, of the smiling negroes going about
their tasks under our eyes.
But all our talks were not of this nature, and stoutly as she guarded
the approaches to intimacy, there were times when I caught her in a
gentler mood or by sheer meekness broke down the barrier of her reserve;
so that perforce she grew more kind. At such times she listened while I
talked of my home and my people and the England, which she knew only
through the pages of Addison and Goldsmith and Richardson; or I
described the long voyage with its stale water and sour beef which had
brought me hither; or she spoke herself, not willingly, of the old
plantation on the Ashapoo, of society on the French Santee, where she
had visited the Marions, of her boarding school at Charles Town, of the
Cecilia Society with its concerts, and the old Provincial Library. It
was clear that Wilmer had been in better circumstances, but when I
ventured to sympathize with her on her isolation her only answer was,
“Give us peace! Only give us peace!”
“Peace?” I echoed. “Yes.”
And I knew that I was losing my own peace. I knew that the pose of her
small head, as it bent over the wheel or the needle, the slender grace
of her figure, the proud sadness of her eyes were coming between me and
the rest of the world; and that beside a kind look from those eyes, that
now dwelt absently on things unseen by me, and now viewed me with a cold
attention, hardly anything in life had any value for me, or any
sweetness. Had I met her elsewhere and in ordinary conditions, I believe
that I should have succumbed to her charm. But here, where she was the
one woman, set in this lonely place as in a frame, encircled by the
peace of green glades and scented hemlocks, by myrtle and reddening
sumach, and where, besides, she walked a perplexing puzzle, a sphinx, a
figure for vain imaginings—was any other issue possible?
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