Malbone: An Oldport RomanceHigginson, Thomas Wentworth
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Malbone: An Oldport Romance
Higginson, Thomas Wentworth
Newport (R.I.) -- Fiction
MALBONE was a person of such ready, emotional nature, and such easy
expression, that it was not hard for Hope to hide from herself the
gradual ebbing of his love. Whenever he was fresh and full of spirits,
he had enough to overflow upon her and every one. But when other
thoughts and cares were weighing on him, he could not share them, nor
could he at such times, out of the narrowing channel of his own life,
furnish more than a few scanty drops for her.
At these times he watched with torturing fluctuations the signs
of solicitude in Hope, the timid withdrawing of her fingers, the
questioning of her eyes, the weary drooping of her whole expression.
Often he cursed himself as a wretch for paining that pure and noble
heart. Yet there were moments when a vague inexpressible delight stole
in; a glimmering of shame-faced pleasure as he pondered on this visible
dawning of distrust; a sudden taste of freedom in being no longer
fettered by her confidence. By degrees he led himself, still half
ashamed, to the dream that she might yet be somehow weaned from him, and
leave his conscience free. By constantly building upon this thought, and
putting aside all others, he made room upon the waste of his life for a
house of cards, glittering, unsubstantial, lofty,--until there came some
sudden breath that swept it away; and then he began on it again.
In one of those moments of more familiar faith which still alternated
with these cold, sad intervals, she asked him with some sudden impulse,
how he should feel if she loved another? She said it, as if guided by
an instinct, to sound the depth of his love for her. Starting with
amazement, he looked at her, and then, divining her feeling, he only
replied by an expression of reproach, and by kissing her hands with
an habitual tenderness that had grown easy to him,--and they were
such lovely hands! But his heart told him that no spent swimmer ever
transferred more eagerly to another’s arms some precious burden beneath
which he was consciously sinking, than he would yield her up to any
one whom she would consent to love, and who could be trusted with the
treasure. Until that ecstasy of release should come, he would do his
duty,--yes, his duty.
When these flushed hopes grew pale, as they soon did, he could at least
play with the wan fancies that took their place. Hour after hour,
while she lavished upon him the sweetness of her devotion, he was half
consciously shaping with his tongue some word of terrible revealing that
should divide them like a spell, if spoken, and then recalling it before
it left his lips. Daily and hourly he felt the last agony of a weak and
passionate nature,--to dream of one woman in another’s arms.
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