Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of FendieOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of Fendie
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Greenshaw is let to strangers--I hear it is greatly altered; but I avoid
it in my limited walks, the last association of deadly pain it has
having obliterated in my mind all the former ones of youthful joy and
sunshine. It is not in my way indeed, for the water and I travel
together--I seldom leave the green line of its banks; I pursue its
windings up and down with constant interest and pleasure. We never weary
of each other; those ripples which I have heard all my life have an
articulate tongue to me--they are connected with all the gladness I have
dreamt, with all the grief I have undergone; and there are creeks and
sunny promontories there which recall the shining thread of youthful
visions till I can almost think I am weaving them again--
“My eyes are filled with childish tears,
My heart is idly stirred,
For the same sound is in my ears
As in those days I heard.”
This spell of local association has always been strong upon me. As I
pass along the banks of my ancient and well-beloved companion, the wan
water, the changes of my life rise up before me, each with its separate
scene and dwelling-place--these dells and pensive glens--these broad
glades, and grouped brotherhoods of old trees--they are peopled with the
things that have been; they bear upon them, as upon so many several
pages, the story of my life.
And so I dwell among them, and at my pleasure am again a solitary child,
a dreaming youth, a stricken man--I feel myself of kin to myself in all
these changes. Swiftly these years have carried me over the world’s
broad highway, but with this white hair upon my head I am still the
child to whose first dreams this water murmured its plaintive symphony.
I know myself little wiser, and in nothing more thoughtful. It is the
things around us that change--it is not we.
For I confess myself as credulous still of ideal generosity and truth,
as I was when I had counted only twenty summers. I have not been able
yet to tutor myself to suspicion--the vision splendid has not quite
departed--I cannot put the lustre of that celestial light, which once
apparelled all things, away out of my eyes, even when those eyes are
old; and Nature in her grave nobleness is not less, but more dear now,
when I remember that I shall soon bid her good even, to enter into the
presence of her Lord and mine. New heavens and a new earth--I cannot
sever my human heart from mine own land; and who shall say that those
noble countries, casting off all impurity in the fiery trial that awaits
them, shall not be our final heaven?
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