Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Historical fiction
Slowly, and with diffident pauses, Michael began to speak of himself,
feeling at first as if he was undressing in public. But as he went on
he became conscious of the welcome that his story received, though that
welcome only expressed itself in perfectly unemotional monosyllables. He
might be undressing, but he was undressing in front of a fire. He knew
that he uncovered himself to no icy blast or contemptuous rain, as he
had felt when, so few days before, he had spoken of himself and what
he was to his father. There was here the common land of music to build
upon, whereas to Lord Ashbridge that same soil had been, so to speak,
the territory of the enemy. And even more than that, there was the
instinct, the certain conviction that he was telling his tale to
sympathetic ears, to which the mere fact that he was speaking of himself
presupposed a friendly hearing. Falbe, he felt, wanted to know about
him, regardless of the nature of his confessions. Had he said that he
was an undetected kleptomaniac, Falbe would have liked to know, have
been pleased at any tidings, provided only they were authentic. This
seemed to reveal itself to him even as he spoke; it had been there
waiting for him to claim it, lying there as in a poste restante, only
ready for its owner.
At the end Falbe gave a long sigh.
“And why the devil didn’t you give me any hint of it before?” he asked.
“I didn’t think it mattered,” said Michael.
“Well, then, you are amazingly wrong. Good Lord, it’s about the most
interesting thing I’ve ever heard. I didn’t know anybody could escape
from that awful sort of prison-house in which our--I’m English now--in
which our upper class immures itself. Yet you’ve done it. I take it that
the thing is done now?”
“I’m not going back into the prison-house again, if you mean that,” said
Michael.
“And will your father cut you off?” asked he.
“Oh, I haven’t the least idea,” said Michael.
“Aren’t you going to inquire?”
Michael hesitated.
“No, I’m sure I’m not,” he said. “I can’t do that. It’s his business.
I couldn’t ask about what he had done, or meant to do. It’s a sort
of pride, I suppose. He will do as he thinks proper, and when he has
thought, perhaps he will tell me what he intends.”
“But, then, how will you live?” asked Falbe.
“Oh, I forgot to tell you that. I’ve got some money, quite a lot, I
mean, from my grandmother. In some ways I rather wish I hadn’t. It would
have been a proof of sincerity to have become poor. That wouldn’t have
made the smallest difference to my resolution.”
Falbe laughed.
“And so you are rich, and yet go second-class,” he said. “If I were rich
I would make myself exceedingly comfortable. I like things that are
good to eat and soft to touch. But I’m bound to say that I get on
quite excellently without them. Being poor does not make the smallest
difference to one’s happiness, but only to the number of one’s
pleasures.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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