Angus Egerton came twice daily during this week, but he rarely saw Mrs.
Darrell. I think he studiously avoided meeting her after that painful
scene in the drawing-room. It was for me he inquired, and he used to
come up-stairs to the corridor outside Milly's room, and stand there
talking to me in a low voice, and feeling a kind of satisfaction, I
believe, in being so near his darling.
Once I ventured to tell her that he was there, and to let him speak a
few words for her to hear. But the sound of the voice she loved so well
had such an agitating effect upon her, that I sorely repented my
imprudence, and took good care not to repeat it.
So the days went by, in that slow dreary way in which time passes when
those we love are ill; and it seemed, in the dead calm of the
sick-room, as if all the business of life had come to a stand-still.
I did not see much of Mrs. Darrell during this period. She came to
Milly's door two or three times a day to ask about her progress, with
all appearance of affection and anxiety; but throughout the rest of the
day she remained secluded in her own rooms. I noticed that she had a
wan haggard look at this time, like that of a person who had existed
for a long while without sleep; but this in no manner surprised me,
after that scene in the drawing-room.
As the time went by, I felt that my strength was beginning to fail, and
I sadly feared that we might have at last to employ the professional
aid which the Manchester physician had suggested. I had slept very
little from the beginning of Milly's illness, being too anxious to
sleep when I had the opportunity of doing so; and I now began to suffer
from the effects of this prolonged sleeplessness. But I struggled
resolutely against fatigue, determined to see my dear girl through the
fever if possible; and I succeeded wonderfully, by the aid of unlimited
cups of strong tea, and always ably seconded by Susan Dodd, Milly's
devoted maid.
Between us we two performed all the duties of the sick-room. The
medicines, wine, soups, jellies, and all things required for the
invalid were kept in the dressing-room, which communicated with the
bedroom by one door, and had another door opening on to the corridor.
The sick-room, which was very large and airy, was by this means kept
free from all litter; and Susan and I took pleasure in making it look
bright and fresh. I used to fetch a bouquet from the garden every
morning for the little table by the bed. At the very commencement of
Milly's illness I had missed Peter, Mrs. Thatcher's grandson. I asked
one of the men what had become of him, and was told that he had taken
the fever and was lying ill at his grandmother's cottage. I mentioned
this to Mrs. Darrell, and asked her permission to send him some wine
and other little comforts, to which she assented.
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