"'Thy God my God!'" he repeated after her slowly. He suddenly wondered
if his God was her God; whether now, in his trouble, he had that comfort
which his creed and profession should give him. For the first time he
felt acutely that his choice of this new life might have been more a
reaction from the past, a desire for expiation, than radical belief that
this was the right and only thing for him to do. And when, some time
after, he bade Ruth good-bye, as she went with her father, it came to him
with appalling conviction that his life had been a mistake. The twist of
a great wrong in a man's character distorts his vision; and if he has a
tender conscience he magnifies his misdeeds.
In silence Roscoe and I watched the two ride down the slope. I guessed
what had happened: afterwards I was told all. I was glad of it, though
the end was not yet promising. When we turned to go towards the house
again, a man lounged out of the trees towards us. He looked at me, then
at Roscoe, and said:
"I'm Phil Boldrick's pal from Danger Mountain." Roscoe held out his
hand, and the man took it, saying: "You're The Padre, I suppose, and Phil
was soft on you. Didn't turn religious, did he? He always had a streak
of God A'mighty in him; a kind of give-away-the-top-of-your-head chap;
friend o' the widow and the orphan, and divvy to his last crust with a
pal. I got your letter, and come over here straight to see that he's
been tombed accordin' to his virtues; to lay out the dollars he left me
on the people he had on his visitin' list; no loafers, no gophers, not
one; but to them that stayed by him I stay, while prog and liquor last."
I saw Roscoe looking at him in an abstracted way, and, as he did not
reply, I said: "Phil had many friends and no enemies." Then I told him
the tale of his death and funeral, and how the valley mourned for him.
While I spoke he stood leaning against a tree, shaking his head and
listening, his eyes occasionally resting on Roscoe with a look as
abstracted and puzzled as that on Roscoe's face. When I had finished he
drew his hand slowly down his beard and a thick sound came from behind
his fingers. But he did not speak.
Then I suggested quietly that Phil's dollars could be put to a better use
than for prog and liquor.
He did not reply to this at all; but after a moment's pause, in which he
seemed to be studying the gambols of a squirrel in a pine tree, he rubbed
his chin nervously, and more in soliloquy than conversation said: "I
never had but two pals that was pals through and through. And one was
Phil and the other was Jo--Jo Brackenbury."
Here Roscoe's hand, which had been picking at the bark of a poplar,
twitched suddenly.
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