Authors, German -- 19th century -- Biography; May, Karl Friedrich, 1842-1912
[a] This is Christian August Vulpius (1762-1827), the brother of
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe's wife Christiane.
[b] "Sallo Sallini" and "Himlo Himlini" were both written by
Georg Carl Ludwig Schöpffer (1811-1876), published in 1828 and
1833.
[c] "Die Räuberhöhle auf dem Monte Viso", by Theodor Graeber,
published in 1834.
[d] Perhaps this refers to "Bruno von Loeveneck und Clara von
Hundsrück", published anonymously in 1825.
When I came to set up the pins and no players had come yet, the
owner of the bar gave me one of these books, to read it for the
time being. Later, he told me I could read them all, without
having to pay for it. And I read them; I devoured them; I read
them three or four times! I took them home. I sat for entire
nights over them with burning eyes. Father did not object.
Nobody warned me, not even those who would have been so very much
obliged to warn me. They knew very well, what I read; I did not
conceal it. And what an effect this had! I did not even suspect
what this caused inside of me; how much collapsed within me;
that the few means of support I, the boy who was spiritually
hovering in thin air, still had now also fell with the exception
of one, this was my faith in God and my confidence in Him.
Psychology is presently in a process of transformation. More and
more, the distinction between the mind and the soul is being made.
There is an attempt to separate the two, to define them sharply,
to prove their differences. It is being said that a human being
was not a single entity, but a drama. For the purpose of going
along with this view, I must not confuse what affected my small,
still growing mind and my boyish soul. All of this extensive
reading, I was forced to do up to now, did not profit my soul at
all, not in the least; just the ever so tiny mind did bear the
effects of this, but what an effects were these! It had been
blown up and rolled out into a little, monstrously fat, big-headed
freak. The very well, perhaps even extraordinarily, talented boy
had transformed into an unshapely, mentally deformed creature, who
possessed nothing real except for his helplessness. And
spiritually, my soul was without home, without youth, was just
held up by this strong, indestructible rope, I mentioned before,
and was only tied to the earth below by this more poetic than
material high regard for king and fatherland, law and justice,
which originated from those days when the eleven companies of
heroes had been formed in Ernstthal, to save the severely besieged
monarch of Saxony and his government from certain ruin. But now,
this support was taken from me as well by reading from this
shameful rental library. All of those robber-captains, bandits,
and robber-knights, of which I read there, were noble people.
Whatever they were now, they had become because of bad people,
especially because of unfair judges and the cruel authorities.
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