He always held himself in a kind of reserve with his friend, as if he
had said, “Let us respect our personality, and not make a 'mess' of
friendship.” He saw, with Emerson, the risk of degrading it to trivial
conveniency. “Why insist on rash personal relations with your friend?”
“Leave this touching and clawing.” Yet I would not give an unfair notion
of his aloofness, his fine sense of the sacredness of the me and
the not-me. And, at the risk of not being believed, I will relate an
incident, which was often repeated. Calvin had the practice of passing
a portion of the night in the contemplation of its beauties, and would
come into our chamber over the roof of the conservatory through the open
window, summer and winter, and go to sleep on the foot of my bed. He
would do this always exactly in this way; he never was content to stay
in the chamber if we compelled him to go upstairs and through the door.
He had the obstinacy of General Grant. But this is by the way. In the
morning, he performed his toilet and went down to breakfast with the
rest of the family. Now, when the mistress was absent from home, and at
no other time, Calvin would come in the morning, when the bell rang, to
the head of the bed, put up his feet and look into my face, follow me
about when I rose, “assist” at the dressing, and in many purring ways
show his fondness, as if he had plainly said, “I know that she has gone
away, but I am here.” Such was Calvin in rare moments.
He had his limitations. Whatever passion he had for nature, he had no
conception of art. There was sent to him once a fine and very expressive
cat's head in bronze, by Fremiet. I placed it on the floor. He regarded
it intently, approached it cautiously and crouchingly, touched it with
his nose, perceived the fraud, turned away abruptly, and never would
notice it afterward. On the whole, his life was not only a successful
one, but a happy one. He never had but one fear, so far as I know: he
had a mortal and a reasonable terror of plumbers. He would never stay in
the house when they were here. No coaxing could quiet him. Of course he
did n't share our fear about their charges, but he must have had some
dreadful experience with them in that portion of his life which is
unknown to us. A plumber was to him the devil, and I have no doubt that,
in his scheme, plumbers were foreordained to do him mischief.
In speaking of his worth, it has never occurred to me to estimate Calvin
by the worldly standard. I know that it is customary now, when any
one dies, to ask how much he was worth, and that no obituary in the
newspapers is considered complete without such an estimate. The plumbers
in our house were one day overheard to say that, “They say that she says
that he says that he wouldn't take a hundred dollars for him.” It is
unnecessary to say that I never made such a remark, and that, so far as
Calvin was concerned, there was no purchase in money.
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