Some impulse made Fulvia turn first to the half-sheet; and in a moment
she saw that it was not intended for herself. She glanced at the
sheet—yes, that began all right, "My dear Fulvia;" but this had "My
dear fellow."
Fulvia read on, notwithstanding. A kind of fascination seemed to hold
her eyes to the page. It was fascination which might have been, and
ought to have been, resisted. Conscience cried loudly, yet she did not
resist. She read on straight and fast to the end.
A gleam came to her eyes, and a glow to her cheeks. For some seconds
she had only one distinct sense—that of an overwhelming joy. Nothing
else could matter now—now—if Nigel and she were to be one! The wish
of his father!—The wish of Mr. Carden-Cox!—The desire of Nigel
himself!—What then could hinder?
But upon this came a rush of yet more overwhelming shame at her own
action, seen in imagination with Nigel's eyes. The shame bowed her
forward, till her face rested upon her knees, and the flush of joy
deepened into a fixed burning of brow and cheeks. What had she done?
What had she been about? Nigel's letter!—But she could not let Nigel
have it! He must never know that her eyes had read those words—Oh,
never! Cold chills shot through her at the very thought.
Anice was coming back. Fulvia heard the approaching steps, and dire
need brought composure. She thrust the half-sheet deep into a pocket
of her dressing-gown, pushed away the candle that her face might be in
shade, and began quietly to read her own letter.
"From Mr. Carden-Cox?" asked Anice, recognising the cramped hand.
"Anything particular?"
"Nothing much. Just chit-chat! He seems getting tired of Burrside
already."
"He always does in a day or two."
"Or a week or two."
Unobservant Anice noticed nothing unusual in Fulvia's shaking hands or
crimson face; but the next moment Daisy rushed in.
"Oh, did I make a noise? I'm sorry. I quite forgot. Why, Fulvie—what
a colour you are! As red as beetroot! Cousin Jamie would say you were
feverish."
"Nonsense. What have you there?"
"Only a postscript from Mr. Carden-Cox for you. It went to Nigel by
mistake. I can't imagine what Mr. Carden-Cox has been about. He sent
another to me instead of to Ethel. You haven't one too, I suppose,
meant for somebody else? Only that sheet—" as Fulvia pointed to the one
lying on her knee. "Fulvie! I say! I'm sure you are not so well this
evening. What is the matter? Anything Mr. Carden-Cox has said? I shall
have to call madre. Why, your hands are like fire, and beating as if
they were alive. I can feel them."
Fulvia snatched the said hands petulantly away.
"Nonsense! Don't. I wish you would not tease. I will not have a word
said to madre, and I only want to be quiet. There is such an amount of
talk and bustle, and my head is wild."
Daisy grew gentle. "I'm sorry. We won't talk any more," she said in a
penitent voice. "Fulvie, if you just get into bed, I'll only help you
and not say a word. Please do."
Fulvia leant back, and shut her eyes.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account