Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863Anonymous
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Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863
Anonymous
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Hospitals
No one who did not hear him, can imagine the pathos with which he
described his little girl’s illness, with all the fervor of his warm
Spanish nature; his care of her; his walking the floor with her night
after night, her little arm around his neck and her head upon his breast;
“for you see, lady, it was worse than if she had had no mother.” His love
for her seemed to amount to a passion; his boys, he said, were “nice
little fellows,” Juan and Henriquez; but evidently his feeling for them
was nothing in comparison with the idolatry lavished upon his little
Rosita, as he called her, a child of four years old.
“I lie here at night,” said he, the large tears rolling down his
cheeks, “and think if I could just once have that little hand in mine,
that little head upon my breast, it would cure me faster than all this
doctor’s stuff, far away faster.”
From what he told me, I gathered that he had enlisted in the war in
despair; and during his absence his wife, for her outrageous conduct,
had been considered insane, and taken to the insane department of the
almshouse, where she then was, the children having been taken to board
by a woman in the neighborhood of their house. He had been unable, as
he had said, to hear anything about them, and feared they were ill,
especially his darling Rosita.
“Lady, dear lady, could you, would you see about them for me?”
“Certainly,” said I; “if it is possible, I will go at once; but I must
first know where they are.”
“You will?” he said, “You really will?” with an expression of wondering
delight; and then, as though the very thought brought peace, remained
perfectly still, apparently musing upon the idea.
“But,” said I, “you do not tell me where to find them.”
“No --, ---- Street.”
I started, and shook my head. “That is impossible; I could not go there.”
“Impossible!” he said, his voice amounting almost to a shriek. “Don’t say
it! Go, dearest lady, go! Nothing could hurt you; God will protect you;
oh! go. I would kneel to you if I could rise.”
“I do not want you to kneel to me; I would go at once, but it would not
be right.”
“Not right! not right!” he said, with utter despair in his tone.
“Oh! then what on earth can be right?” and covering his head in the
bed-clothes, he groaned as though from the depths of his soul.
As this is no autobiography, it matters little by what train, either of
reasoning or of cars, I reached the spot where I stood, an hour later;
nor, for the same reason, shall I be more particular in my description
of what followed, than is necessary for my narrative. Suffice it to say,
a certain account of “St. Margaret’s court,” in the matchless poem of
Aurora Leigh, was before me, stereoscoped into life, never again to be
mere word-painting.
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