Banks and banking -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Love stories
“I know, dear. And so firmly set in his prejudice and his pride. I
know. He will think me so far below you; he hates the bank and all
connected with it. He holds me a mere clerk, not one of his class, and
low, dear, I know it. But”—his voice rose a tone—“I am not low, Jos,
and you have discovered it. And now I must prove it to him. I must
prove it. And to make a beginning, I must be no coward. I must not be
afraid of him. For you, the times are past when he could ill-treat you.
And he loves you.”
“He is very hard,” she murmured. It was his punishment throughout, that
though his heart was wrung for her he could not bear her share of the
suffering. But he dared not and he would not give way. “He will make me
give you up.”
He had thought of that and was ready for it. “That must depend upon
you,” he said very soberly. “For my part, dear—but my part is easy—I
shall never give you up. Never! But if the trial be too sore for you
who must bear the heavier burden, if you feel that our love is not
worth the price you must pay, then I will never reproach you, Jos,
never. If you decide on that I will not say one word against it; no,
nor think one harsh thought of you. And then we need not tell him. But
we must not meet again.”
She trembled; and it was natural, it was very natural, that she should
tremble. It was an age when discipline was strict and even harsh, and
she had been bred up in awe of her father, and in that absolute
subjection to him of which the women about her set the example.
Children were then to be seen and not heard. Girls were expected to
have neither wills nor views of their own. And in her case this was not
all. The Squire was a hard man. He was a man of whom those about him
stood in awe, and who if he had any of the softer affections hid them
under a mask of unpleasing reserve. Proud as he was of his caste, he
kept his daughter short of money and short of clothes. He saw her go
shabby without a qualm, and penniless, and rejoiced that she could not
get into mischief. If she lost a shilling on an errand or overpaid a
bill, he stormed and raved at her. Had she run up a debt he would have
driven her from the room with oaths. So that if, under the dry husk,
there was any kernel, any softer feeling—either for her or for the
young boy who had died in his first uniform at Alexandria—she had no
clue to the fact, and certainly no suspicion of it.
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