Paul Gosslett's Confessions in Love, Law, and The Civil ServiceLever, Charles
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Paul Gosslett's Confessions in Love, Law, and The Civil Service
Lever, Charles
Fiction
I know no more how the rest of the night was passed by me, how the hours
were spent till daybreak, than I could recount the incidents of delirium
in fever. I must have had something like a paroxysm of insanity, for I
appear to have rushed from room to room, calling for different people,
and in tones of heart-rending entreaty begging that I might not be
deserted. Towards morning I slept,--slept so soundly that the noises of
the house did not disturb me. It was late in the afternoon when I awoke.
The servant brought me my coffee and my letters; but I bade him leave
me, and fell off to sleep again. In this way, and with only such
sustenance as a cup of milk or coffee would afford, I passed fourteen
days, my state resembling that of a man laboring under concussion of
the brain; indeed, so closely did the symptoms resemble those of this
affection, that the doctor carefully examined my head to see whether I
had not incurred some actual injury. It was five weeks before I could
leave my bed, and crawl down with difficulty to my study. The table was
covered with the accumulated letters of thirty-odd posts, and I turned
over the envelopes, most of which indicated communications from the
company. There was also one in my uncle's hand. This I opened and read.
It was in these words:--
“So, sir, not satisfied with a life of indolence and dependence, you
have now added infamy to your worthlessness, and have not even spared
the members of your own family the contagion of your vice. If you can
give information as to the present abode of your wretched victim, do so,
as the last amends in your power, and the last act of reparation, before
you are consigned to that jail in which it is to be hoped you will end
your days.”
I read this till my head reeled. Who were the members of my family I had
contaminated or corrupted? Who was my wretched victim? And why I was to
die in prison I knew not. And the only conclusion I could draw from it
all was that my uncle was hopelessly mad, and ought to be shut up.
A strange-looking, coarse-papered document, that till then had escaped
my notice, now caught my eye. It was headed “Court of Probate and
Divorce,” and set forth that on a certain day in term the case of
“MacNamara _versus_ Mac-Namara, Gosslett, co-respondent,” would come on
for trial; the action being to obtain a rule _nisi_ for divorce, with
damages against the co-respondent.
A notice of service, duly signed by one of my own people, lay beside
this; so that at last I got a faint glimmering of what my uncle meant,
and clearly descried what was im plied by my “victim.”
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