"The roses are in perfection," she thought, "the leaves must be gathered
to-morrow. They give my dresses the only scent I can endure. Ian always
notices it. He says it is so delicate and delicious that too much of it
would make him faint with pleasure. _Heigho!_ I have had a few hours
that I dare not repeat. I am so susceptible--so foolish. This affair
must be stopped. I will not allow it to go further. I dare not. I should
become a Minister's wife if I did. Could I think of that? Decidedly not.
I love him, yes. I love him, but I cannot sacrifice my life to make his
life sweeter. Should I make it sweeter? I am sure I would not. Religion
is very well on a Sunday morning, nice and ladylike, and I generally
enjoy it; but every day in your life is too much. I endured eight years
with an old noble that I might get entry into his caste. I cannot throw
that privilege away for love. No, I must marry a duke--good-bye, my
handsome Ian! We have had some happy hours together--but it is now time
to part."
She sat discussing this subject with what she called her "heart" till
long after midnight; then the still, sweet atmosphere was invaded by the
sudden impetuous trample of a ghostly wind. The moon had set, and the
sky was bending darkly over a darker world.
"Those clouds terrify me," she whispered. "They seem to look angrily at
me. I shall have bad dreams if I do not go to bed"--and as she did so
she nervously continued her soliloquy. "I dare say this is the hour that
liberates ghosts; such a wind would open all the old doors in this old
house, and the old joys and sorrows would come out. It is not cannie. I
will sleep now, and to-morrow--I will get ready for London."
Dr. Macrae had lingered long on the moor. He had refused the carriage,
feeling that physical motion was the imperative craving of the hour. But
he was in such a miraculous state of rapture that his walking was not
walking; he trod upon the air, the earth was buoyant under his feet. He
knew not, he asked not, whether he was in the body or out of the body.
The exquisite Adalaide loved him. She had promised to be his wife. With
a little cry of joy he recalled that ecstatic moment when she had kissed
on his lips the one little word which made all things sure.
"This is love!" he cried joyfully, lifting his face to the heavens, "and
I have blamed and punished those who have fallen through love! O man
foolish and ignorant of the great temptation!"
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