Slavery -- United States -- Fiction; Underground Railroad -- Fiction
That there was truth in what her mother said about her influence in the
sick-room Rhoda was well aware. She had herself noted their patient’s
increased nervousness if she stayed long away from his presence, and
she treasured the thought of it in her heart as she did his open words
of love. And she longed, far more than even her mother could guess, to
be there with him, to minister to his comfort, to hear his voice, to
catch now and then the look of love in his eye. So much did she yearn
for all the blessedness of it that she was afraid to trust herself,
afraid for her resolution.
She turned her eyes away from the grape arbor and deliberately fixed
her thoughts upon the slave woman and her two little children whom
she had succored two nights before, forced herself to think of the
dozen others whom she had helped to conceal in the house and to further
secretly on their way, of the desperate, fleeing bondman whose freedom
she had won from Jefferson Delavan in the woods on that June afternoon.
With a sudden indrawing of her breath she set her teeth upon her lip
and said within herself, “No, no, I will not fail you!”
But the dear thought of her lover and his need of her still drew her
heart. Well, she would tell him there must be no more of love between
them and that only upon that understanding would she stay beside him in
his sick-chamber. Then he could have no false hopes and the way before
them would be fair and clear. At this capitulation she was conscious of
a thrill of happiness and she could not resist dwelling for an instant
upon a sweet premonition of their hours together. Just then she saw
Charlotte down in the yard and her sister’s proposal of the day before
recurred to her, as it had already done several times. She knew there
was no telling how far Charlotte might choose to carry her teasing of
Horace Hardaker.
“Poor Horace! It’s a shame!” was her thought, but a smile went with
it. “Such a good friend as he is, and he does take things so much in
earnest!” Why shouldn’t Charlotte go in and out of the room as freely
as she did? The idea brought a sharp pang with it--Charlotte had such
a way with her, and if she chose--well, what right had she herself to
Jeff’s love when she would not marry him? What a mean thing it would
be to stand in her sister’s way if Jeff should choose to transfer his
affections. Something seemed clutching at her heart, but she turned
quickly round to her mother, who had been waiting with a pleased
smile on her face, scarcely doubting what would be the result of her
daughter’s few minutes of thought.
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