Does a curse like unto mine follow the footsteps of men who hate, or
does the Trewinion race stand alone. Be that as it may, I felt cursed,
the clear fountains of my manhood were gone. Roger Trewinion was more
demon than man. For hatred poisons the soul.
And yet I loved Ruth. This, I think, was the power that kept me from
going back and doing evil, and yet this love did not make me hate the
less. Nay, it made hatred more intense.
Long I stood alone in the grey morning, watching the bleak house that
stood in the distance, while the sea moaned and sobbed miserably, as if
to add another feeling to the misery of my heart. I seemed riveted
there. I looked at the five prongs of the "Devil's Tooth" like one
entranced, and thought of their associations. I saw the place where I
had saved Ruth, when she had fallen from the cliffs. I fancied I
detected the place where the witches' cave stood, and I remembered all
that had been said.
"Ah," I cried, "Deborah Teague is indeed a true prophet. Dark omens
have a meaning. I am indeed homeless, friendless, forsaken, and the
Trewinion curse is come. I go now, never to return, while my love is
given to another, and my power is taken by my younger brother. Yet
seemingly I have done nothing to merit this."
For a time I was mad. I shook my fist and called down curses upon
Wilfred and my mother. I prayed that they should never have rest or
joy, and that the ghost of my father should haunt them. And yet I
could give no real reason for this, only that my heart was black.
I felt I must go on. I must get farther away from the place where my
life had been spent; so I gave one look more, one long hungering look
that was full of agony, and as at last I turned my eyes away, my heart
strings seemed to snap.
Then I set my teeth together, clasped my stick firmly, and, with
lowering brow and a black heart, trudged wearily northward.
CHAPTER XIII
A WANDERER
I went on heedlessly for a mile or so. I was stunned, and felt strange
and giddy; but by and by I felt I must come to such decision in regard
to my course. So I struck into the main road, and continued my journey
northward. By this time I felt the warmth and brightness of the day.
The sun was now clear of the horizon, and revealed the glittering
dewdrops that hung on grass and flower. The majestic hills rose on
either side of me, the waving cornfields presented a rich and beautiful
appearance.
The glories of nature did not soften me, however. My heart was still
hard with hatred and disappointment, and I was too busy with my sad
thoughts to decide what to do, or to what town to steer.
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