Cousins -- Fiction; English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English; Villages -- England -- Fiction
“Cheer up, old fellow,” said Eastonville. “Bindo’s a deal fonder of you
than he is of the rest of us, and won’t take it so hardly if it comes
through you. The fact is we’ve spoiled him; all of us, that is, but you.
And he knew it too, and I believe he liked the preaching you gave him
better than all my five-pound notes; not that he showed any objection to
the notes, I’m bound to say. Now, don’t look so savage, old man. I’m
bound to try and laugh over it, because, if I didn’t, I feel sure I
should do the other thing. And after all this business may be the making
of Bindo.”
But he didn’t know Bindo as I did. The boy came to me with outstretched
hand, and with the old frank look in his eyes. But I could not trust
myself to return it. What I did, must, I felt, be done quickly. If I
waited for words in which to break the news to him; above all, if I gave
him the chance of speaking first, I knew it was all up with me. So I
just put the things on the table in front of him—how I hated the sight of
them!—and said, “These things have come into my hands, no matter by what
means.” He looked at them, and the faintest flush imaginable crept over
his face. “Before you leave me to-night we will do them up for the post,
and you will address them to the respective owners and leave them in my
hands.” I did not dare to look at him, but turned away to another table,
making up the parcels one by one and handing them to him where he stood
behind my back. He addressed each parcel as he received it, never
betraying by a word or sign what I knew the effort must have cost him.
“And now, Eric, you and I part company.” I saw him wince at the name;
almost as if he had received a blow. No doubt it implied to him, far
more plainly than I had intended, that the Bindo of the past was lost
beyond recall. It was not said in heedlessness, still less in
heartlessness; it was simply loss of self-control. The old familiar name
_could_ not be forced past my lips. In a moment I saw what I had done,
and would have given worlds to repair it. “Bindo,” I cried impulsively,
“come back.” But it was too late; the mischief was done. I had lost my
last chance by that one word.
“Good-bye,” he answered, and was gone.
III
The characters we meet with in this world are composite, all of them—not
saint or sinner; not this or else that, but something betwixt and
between; the good in them not permanent, the bad in them not hopeless;
and Bindo’s short life had exemplified the fact with startling clearness.
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