England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Physicians -- Fiction; Single men -- Fiction
How often does one hear well-meaning people say, when discussing the
marriages of others (and of course discussion is superfluous and insipid
when marriages are satisfactory), “Ah, if only they had had a child, what
a difference it would have made!” But in my experience children can
divide parents quite as much as they can unite them. I may have
entertained some hope that the little pink creature with the dark silky
hair in Rose’s arms was to bring Rose and Eustace closer; but there was
no indication of it. Again when their eyes met no light was kindled.
How that other child, that boy of her desire, would have affected the
love of husband and wife it was not now possible to say; but this little
helpless mite in its mother’s arms obviously was without any federating
gift.
Eustace said a few nice things to Rose, and something about new-born
infants being no novelties to me, and left us.
“I suppose she’s perfect!” I said.
“Poor little pet, she’s so warm and dependent,” said her mother.
“A nice doctor?” I asked.
“Quite,” she said, “and the kindest nurse possible.”
“Then you’re happy,” I said, but I knew that she wasn’t.
The unwanted children—are they not tragic figures? And their name is
legion. Every doctor can give you a list!
I don’t say that this minute Rose was exactly unwanted. Rose—my Rose—was
incapable of coldness to anything young and soft and helpless, least of
all a baby; and Eustace, I could see, liked being a father. But the Rose
who had given birth to that little boy, and Rose the mother of this
little girl, were worlds asunder. This Rose was affectionate,
thoughtful, dutiful, protective; that other had been transfigured by
maternal ecstasy and pride.
Eustace and I lunched alone, and I did my best to penetrate his armour,
but in vain. How did he think of his wife? What kind of need of her had
he? Was he disappointed or was all going as he had expected and wished?
Why on earth had she found him attractive and how had he lost his hold on
her? A hint of the possible reason of his own attitude was offered when,
to my question, Didn’t he find himself a little at sea domestically when
Rose was upstairs like this? he replied, No. It seemed that the
direction of the household was his hobby. He arranged the meals in
advance, scrutinized and paid the books, interviewed the servants. He
had done this as a bachelor and liked to know how his money was being
spent.
“With all my worldly goods I thee endow”—the words came back to me as he
talked.
So Rose was not even mistress of her house, had no realm to queen it in.
“What women want is a home” is an old-fashioned saying in which I am a
believer; and Rose was without one. All that she had was a footing in
Mr. Holt’s.
How I longed for some of Mrs. O’Gorman’s trenchancy and candour to tell
him of his mistake! But I had none. I could observe and deduce, but I
had not the courage, or arrogance, to censure.
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