International relations -- Fiction; Liaoyang, Battle of, Liaoyang, China, 1904 -- Fiction; War correspondents -- Fiction
Routledge came to an agreement with the woman of the house; carried
from his own rooms blankets, soap, towels, pictures, a pair of military
brushes, an unused pocket-knife, a package of candles, and many
other little things to the wee box of a room in the hall, taking much
pleasure in the outfitting.... He had not yet brought his own baggage
from Charing Cross, and was glad now. London had become to him like a
plague quarantine, a smothering menace. He would leave London to-day,
and Noreen Cardinegh, without daring to see her again. His every
movement, he realized, was watched. Even to take her hand for a moment
would reflect evil upon her. The White Mustache, or one of his kind,
would observe, and a lasting record would be made. He paced the floor
swiftly, murdering the biggest thing in his life.
... He could go to Rawder. There was healing in that. Perhaps the old
Sannyasi would take him for the _chela_ of his _chela_. He could hide
in England’s India, which only a few of the secret service knew so well
as he.... Could he put all the wars and illusions of matter away, drink
of the ancient wisdom, wander beneficently until the end, with two
holy men, in the midst of God’s humblest poor? Could he put behind him
all that was supreme and lovely of his life this hour, sink it in the
graveyard of his past with other dead desires?
It was just a rush of vague, vain thoughts. Had he been pure as the
boy, twelve years ago, and wise as the man now, _and if he had never
known Noreen Cardinegh_, possibly then the old Sannyasi might say, “Be
the disciple of my disciple; and, free from all the illusions of the
flesh, journey with us up into the silence of the goodly mountains.”...
But this life would never know freedom from that thrilling, beautiful
memory. He could sacrifice a union with Noreen Cardinegh, but never
renounce her from the high place of his heart. She was wedded to the
source and centre of his life, and no asceticism could shrive her
from him. He might put half the planet’s curve between, but the bride
the world had formed for him would be the eternal crying voice in the
wilderness; and until they were mated in this or another life, the
Wheel of Births and Deaths would never whirl him free from love, the
loftiest of all illusions. Though he sat in a temple upon the roof of
the world, holding his thoughts among the stars until the _kusa grass_
beneath him was blown like dust away, and his body petrified upon the
naked rock, the last breath from the ruin would stir his lips to the
name of the world’s bright gift to him--Noreen.
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