International relations -- Fiction; Liaoyang, Battle of, Liaoyang, China, 1904 -- Fiction; War correspondents -- Fiction
Routledge was startled by the expression of a thought which the
_Review_ would not intentionally have published, less obviously than in
a charade. There was nothing of vanity in the matter, but her words
became dear to memory--rifts in that dreadful parting hour. Certainly
there was deep gladness for the woman in the telling:
“They speak of you losing yourself in India for months and months. Do
you think I have missed all that you have found, Routledge-san, when
you were lost to men? I know something of what India means to you,
her submission and her famines, and the hundreds of little Warren
Hastings’ trooping over her, from Lahore to Pondicherry, brooding
of pounds and power! Why, to me you have placed it clear as Carlyle
with his reverberating thunders of fifty years ago. Here is England,
sitting dull-eyed among her flesh-pots, and yonder is India--drained.
You did not say it in direct words, Routledge-san, but you made me
see the provinces of India scattered about like the shells of insects
in a spider’s web, and this London--the darkened lair of the watching
eyes.... Oh, I have seen all that you mean, Routledge-san, but
more--the bigger, finer things than national relations.... You have
gone into the silent places to meditate, and to me you have brought
back the images of the silence--big, chaste things, like our bravest
man. There is good and there is hope in the world which holds such men
and such things--and because of you I have kept my optimism. I seem
to have a perfect torrent of talk, but I have been so much alone to
think--and you are going away. I want you to know that you and the
things you have brought to me are bigger--than London and the world....
When I speak with you--I seem to have known you always.... And then you
are going away--with a burden in your heart, which no act of yours put
there.... Why is it, Routledge-san, that one’s bravest man must suffer
such deluges of evil?”
“Noreen, you are resistless,” he murmured. “It is life----”
She pressed her face to the pane, tried thoughtlessly to brush away the
blurring rain on the outside. With a quick, savage return of pain, she
realized how near they were to Charing Cross.
“I haven’t told you--all that I mean yet, Routledge-san!” she whispered
feverishly. “You met some adversary last night and conquered. You are
weak and hurt--but you have won.... I cannot quite understand, but the
sentence ringing in my brain is this: ‘The young grain is springing on
the field of Waterloo.’... I met my adversary in the night--and I have
won, too. When I think of you--it rushes over me like a tidal wave--to
fight London and the world for you; but I have my work here. It must be
done cleanly and without a cry. My father needs me. The best is gone
from him already--and I must treasure the rest; but it will not be
always.... And when my work is finished in Cheer Street, Routledge-san,
I shall cross the world to find you!”
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