“Will you not come into the manse, and have something before you go?”
said James, not without anxiety lest his housekeeper should be taken at
unawares, and their acceptance should annoy her: he lived in constant
dread of offending his housekeeper!
“Na, I thank ye,” returned his father: “it wad taste o’ stew!” (_blown
dust_).
It was a rude remark; but Peter was not in a kind mood; and when love
itself is unkind, it is apt to be burning and bitter and merciless.
Marion burst into tears. James turned away, and walked home with a gait
of wounded dignity. Peter went in haste toward the churchyard gate, to
interrupt with the bit his mare’s feed of oats. Marion saw his hands
tremble pitifully as he put the headstall over the creature’s ears, and
reproached herself that she had given him such a cold-hearted son. She
climbed in a helpless way into the gig, and sat waiting for her husband.
“I’m that dry ’at I could drink cauld watter!” he said, as he took his
place beside her.
They drove from the place of tombs, but they carried death with them,
and left the sunlight behind them.
Neither spoke a word all the way. Not until she was dismounting at their
own door, did the mother venture her sole remark, “Eh, sirs!” It meant
a world of unexpressed and inexpressible misery. She went straight up to
the little garret where she kept her Sunday bonnet, and where she said
her prayers when in especial misery. Thence she descended after a
while to her bedroom, there washed her face, and sadly prepared for
a hungerless encounter with the dinner Isy had been getting ready for
them—hoping to hear something about the sermon, perhaps even some
little word about the minister himself. But Isy too must share in the
disappointment of that vainly shining Sunday morning! Not a word passed
between her master and mistress. Their son was called the pastor of the
flock, but he was rather the porter of the sheepfold than the shepherd
of the sheep. He was very careful that the church should be properly
swept and sometimes even garnished; but about the temple of the Holy
Ghost, the hearts of his sheep, he knew nothing, and cared as little.
The gloom of his parents, their sense of failure and loss, grew and
deepened all the dull hot afternoon, until it seemed almost to pass
their endurance. At last, however, it abated, as does every pain, for
life is at its root: thereto ordained, it slew itself by exhaustion.
“But,” thought the mother, “there’s Monday coming, and what am I to
do then?” With the new day would return the old trouble, the gnawing,
sickening pain that she was childless: her daughter was gone, and no
son was left her! Yet the new day when it came, brought with it its new
possibility of living one day more!
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