On the following Saturday, the soutar was hard at work all day long
on the new boots the minister had ordered of him, which indeed he had
almost forgotten in anxiety about the man for whom he had to make them.
For MacLear was now thoroughly convinced that the young man had “some
sick offence within his mind,” and was the more anxious to finish his
boots and carry them home the same night, that he knew his words had
increased the sickness of that offence, which sickness might be the
first symptom of returning health. For nothing attracted the soutar more
than an opportunity of doing anything to lift from a human soul, were
it but a single fold of the darkness that compassed it, and so let the
light nearer to the troubled heart. As to what it might be that was
harassing the minister’s soul, he sternly repressed in himself all
curiosity. The thought of Maggie’s precious little foundling did indeed
once more occur to him, but he tried all he could to shut it out. He did
also desire that the minister should confess, but he had no wish that
he should unbosom himself to him: from such a possibility, indeed, he
shrank; while he did hope to persuade him to seek counsel of some one
capable of giving him true advice. He also hoped that, his displeasure
gradually passing, he would resume his friendly intercourse with
himself; for somehow there was that in the gloomy parson which
powerfully attracted the cheery and hopeful soutar, who hoped his
troubled abstraction might yet prove to be heart-hunger after a
spiritual good which he had not begun to find: he might not yet have
understood, he thought, the good news about God—that he was just
what Jesus seemed to those that saw the glory of God in his face. The
minister could not, the soutar thought, have learned much of the truth
concerning God; for it seemed to wake in him no gladness, no power of
life, no strength to _be_. For _him_ Christ had not risen, but lay wrapt
in his winding sheet! So far as James’s feeling was concerned, the larks
and the angels must all be mistaken in singing as they did!
At an hour that caused the soutar anxiety as to whether the housekeeper
might not have retired for the night, he rang the bell of the
manse-door; which in truth did bring the minister himself from his
study, to confront MacLear on the other side of the threshold, with the
new boots in his hand.
But the minister had come to see that his behaviour in his last visit to
the soutar must have laid him open to suspicion from him; and he was now
bent on removing what he counted the unfortunate impression his words
might have made. Wishing therefore to appear to cherish no offence over
his parishioner’s last words to him ere they parted, and so obliterate
any suggestion of needed confession lurking behind his own words with
which he had left him, he now addressed him with an _abandon_ which,
gloomy in spirit as he habitually was, he could yet assume in a moment
when the masking instinct was aroused in him—
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