‘It’s curious,’ he reflected. ‘It’s a fine illustration of the loyalty
of those people to one another. I suppose there was a general agreement
for the Duchess’ sake that nothing should be said about her queer guest.
But even if I had dared hope to be so efficiently hushed up, I couldn’t
have not fled. I wanted to forget. I wanted to leap into some void,
far away from all reminders. I leapt straight from Ryder Street into
Vaule-la-Rochette, a place of which I had once heard that it was
the least frequented seaside-resort in Europe. I leapt leaving no
address--leapt telling my landlord that if a suit-case and a portmanteau
arrived for me he could regard them, them and their contents, as his own
for ever. I daresay the Duchess wrote me a kind little letter, forcing
herself to express a vague hope that I would come again “some other
time.” I daresay Lady Rodfitten did NOT write reminding me of my promise
to lunch on Friday and bring “Ariel Returns to Mayfair” with me. I
left that manuscript at Ryder Street; in my bedroom grate; a shuffle of
ashes. Not that I’d yet given up all thought of writing. But I certainly
wasn’t going to write now about the two things I most needed to forget.
I wasn’t going to write about the British aristocracy, nor about any
kind of supernatural presence.... I did write a novel--my last--while I
was at Vaule. “Mr. and Mrs. Robinson.” Did you ever come across a copy
of it?
I nodded gravely.
‘Ah; I wasn’t sure,’ said Maltby, ‘whether it was ever published. A
dreary affair, wasn’t it? I knew a great deal about suburban life.
But--well, I suppose one can’t really understand what one doesn’t love,
and one can’t make good fun without real understanding. Besides, what
chance of virtue is there for a book written merely to distract
the author’s mind? I had hoped to be healed by sea and sunshine and
solitude. These things were useless. The labour of “Mr. and Mrs.
Robinson” did help, a little. When I had finished it, I thought I might
as well send it off to my publisher. He had given me a large sum of
money, down, after “Ariel,” for my next book--so large that I was rather
loth to disgorge. In the note I sent with the manuscript, I gave no
address, and asked that the proofs should be read in the office. I
didn’t care whether the thing were published or not. I knew it would be
a dead failure if it were. What mattered one more drop in the foaming
cup of my humiliation? I knew Braxton would grin and gloat. I didn’t
mind even that.’
‘Oh, well,’ I said, ‘Braxton was in no mood for grinning and gloating.
“The Drones” had already appeared.’
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