Bildungsromans; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
M ISS CARTHEW’S arrival widened very considerably Michael’s
view of life. Nurse’s crabbed face and stunted figure had
hitherto appropriately enough dominated such realities of
existence as escaped from the glooms and shadows of his
solitary childhood. Michael had for so long been familiar with
ugliness that he was dangerously near to an eternal
imprisonment in a maze of black fancies. He had come to take
pleasure in the grotesque and the macabre, and even on the
sunniest morning his imagination would turn to twilight and
foggy eves, to basements and empty houses and loneliness and
dust. Michael would read furtively the forbidden newspapers
that Nurse occasionally left lying about. In these he would
search for murders and crimes, and from their association with
thrills of horror, the newspapers themselves had gradually
acquired a definitely sinister personality. If at dusk Michael
found a newspaper by Nurse’s arm-chair, he would approach it
with beating heart, and before he went over to read it where
close to the window the light of day lingered, he would brood
upon his own daring, as if some Bluebeard’s revenge might
follow.
When Michael’s mother was at home, he was able to resume the
cheerfulness of the last occasion on which her company had
temporarily relieved his solitude; but always behind the
firelit confidences, the scented good mornings and good nights,
the gay shopping walks and all the joys which belonged to him
and her, stood threatening and inevitable the normal existence
with Nurse in which these
rosy hours must be remembered as only hours, fugitive and
insecure and rare. Now came Miss Carthew’s brisk and lively
presence to make many alterations in the life of 64 Carlington
Road, Kensington.
Michael’s introduction to his governess took place in the presence of
his mother and, as he stood watching the two women in conversation, he
was aware of a tight-throated feeling of pleasure. They were both so
tall and slim and beautiful: they were both so straight and clean that
they gave him the glad sensation of blinds pulled up to admit the sun.
“I think we’re going to be rather good friends,” said Miss Carthew.
Michael could only stare his agreement, but he managed to run before
Miss Carthew in order to open the door politely, when she was going
out. In bed that night he whispered to his mother how much he liked
Miss Carthew and how glad he was that he could leave the Miss Marrows’
for the company of Miss Carthew all day long.
“And all night?” he asked wistfully.
“No, not at present, darling,” she answered. “Nanny will still look
after you at night.”
“Will she?” Michael questioned somewhat doubtfully.
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